Friday December 16th 2016
I didn’t sleep much last night. Maybe six hours. I was up for two hours or more before finally falling asleep. Mom had a hard time last night, which was worrying me. I got up at 8:30 (an hour before I’ve usually been getting up) in a very bad mood. I spilled something, which made me pissed. I was snappy towards Thoth. I hate when I do that. I was tired. I apologized once I settled down in a chair to write my Morning Pages.
After writing three pages of what happened last night, I felt more cleared and calmed. Thoth and I talked and I called some people. When I had finished talking to people, the phone rang. It was Andrew Kimbrough, my old acting teacher who taught at University of Kentucky. I studied voice for one year there in 2007/2008. He championed me to go to NYC and learn how to compose original music. He cast me as Ariel in “The Tempest” and encouraged me to write my first songs for the show. He introduced me to Meredith Monk’s opera”Atlas”. It was so lovely to talk to him. I told him what was going on with me and he told me what was going on with him. Eventually we just talked about life and our memories of each other at school. His adopted son, whom he let me hold when he was a baby, is 8 now. That’s how long it’s been since I’ve seen him. He asked if I’d like to call again for a longer conversation. We decided on Sunday. Yay! Something to look forward to!
I went up to my room and saw my friend James from England had written back to me. He said we could talk on Skype tomorrow! Something else to look forward to! Yay! I was feeling much better. I spent the morning editing my vlogs and listening to music. Around noon, Thoth knocked on the door for breakfast time. I love breakfast time with the hubby. He loves breakfast time with the wifey, too! I cleaned up and went back to my bedroom. I got a call from my friend Will, who asked if he could come pick me up to hang at his house. Sure! Thoth didn’t want to come, so it was just me and Will. I’m really glad I went.
We stopped at a violin shop to pick up two violins of his and went to his house. I wrote in my journal and he made me some tea and rice and beans. It was so sweet. He showed me a video of a new singer he discovered called Phillipe Sly singing “The Trumpet Shall Sound”. It’s gorgeous. Look it up! I’m listening to it again now. When I finished my journal entry, we went down to the basement where his speakers were to listen to music. I didn’t have the song I had wanted to show him, so I played my favorite pieces from Die Zauberflote. Eventually I was laying on my back between the speakers conducting and rewinding the song on my favorite parts. That’s how I listen to music. All the music I love, I know it like the back of my hand. All the subtleties. I then played the Paginini Caprices, the first seven. I know it by heart. Will sat a bit away from me watching as I conducted and moved my body to the music lying on the floor. It was wonderful. I love music.
I played one more song, “Music of the Night,” before he drove me home. We talked about our opera commission, “Esh and Ee-ay”. So sweet. At home, mom was up ordering thin crust spinach pizza for us. I spent a little time editing a vlog in my room before food arrived. We had chicken Caesar salad with our pizza. It was really good. I went back to my room to edit more vlogs, write my blog and listen to music, which I’m doing right now.
Thursday December 15th 2016
I spent the morning in my bedroom writing, editing vlogs and reading my books before having breakfast with Thoth. He put some leftover cooked apples in my oatmeal. So good! I wanted us to take a walk in the woods together, but it was too cold for Thoth. Instead, I went alone. It was really, really nice. I made an acting video as if I was lost in the woods. Check it.
Thoth was worried about me when I came home. I spent the rest of the day researching what it sounds like to hear voices, as yesterday’s personal acting vlog was all about a character who hears voice. I’m really having fun filming myself acting. I never considered I could act before. I found a few ‘hearing voices simulation” videos on Youtube. Pretty cool. I’m sure glad I don’t hear voices!
In the evening, we borrowed mother’s car and went to my dad’s house for dinner. There was a Christmas tree and a fire in the fireplace. Lovely. After dinner, I went downstairs with Dad and looked at some of our baby pictures. So sweet. Dad showed me a video of a soprano singing an avant garde classical piece in a school girl outfit. Very cool. We went home and mom wasn’t doing so well. I talked with her until midnight and we listened to me singing from when I was 17.
I couldn’t sleep I was so worried about mom. She called at 2am and needed help. Poor mother! I finally got to sleep around 3am.
Wednesday December 14th 2016
I started a 30 day create challenge for my vlog channel. I also started reading, “The Musician’s Soul” in addition to “The Artist’s Way”. I’m doing my three morning pages every morning now. It feels very good to write long hand. I’m being more creative and reading more instead of acting. I got my period today too. When it got dark, I did my dark makeup and filmed an acting video for my second day create challenge.
I cleaned off the makeup and Will came over for dinner. Thoth made an amazing risotto dinner for us. The kitchen felt wonderful. I had Will read me a poem of e.e. cummings and we all four of us sat down to dinner. Mother, me, Thoth and Will. Afterwards we ate cooked apples and yogurt and I had Will and Thoth write in my journal. He couldn’t believe how beautifully I write. He went home and I cleaned up and went back to my room. Lovely day.
Tuesday November 17th 2015
We had a wonderful 6th year anniversary! I got all dressed up for our special dinner at Gotham Bar and Grill. Thanks for Mike R. for this treat. The restaurant was beautiful. A woman in the restroom, who was clearly drunk said, “You should come to my table and say ‘We need to perform together again soon!’ and then just walk away.” I didn’t. 🙂
We were seated at a cozy little corner table right next to the bar away from all the noise. “Thoth.” said the bartender. “He recognized me from modeling in SF.” Thoth said after talking with him. “That’s a long time ago.” I said.
We ordered our drinks. “I have the prettiest guests in the restaurant!” our waitress said. She was wonderful. She made me a special non alcoholic fruity drink. “You’re so beautiful!” a woman sitting next to me said.
Thoth had a martini. We both ordered three courses; two appetizers and a main dish. Everything was beyond delicious.
Tuna tartar for me.
then squash soup…UH-MAZING.
Then lobster and short ribs. Just the most amazing thing. I didn’t know food could be so good!
Our waitress even gave us an EXTRA dessert. “Because you made my night.” she said.
Thoth and I are just like good food. We may look extremely unusual, but we’re extremely kind, fun and good spirited people. We taste as good as we look. 🙂 🙂 🙂
Thoth was tipsy and we were both so very tired while going home. What a lovely night!
Thank you Mike!!
Thursday June 19th 2014
I got up and wished my Bunny a Happy Birthday! There were tons of people BBQ-ing as we walked through The Meadows. I want us to do that before we leave. I don’t think we’ll come back to Edinburgh, unless something changes drastically. We passed the mandolinist and she barely acknowledged us. The Royal Mile seemed pretty slow and there was a guitarist with an amplifier near our spot. We sat on the steps and waited for him to finish. A woman came straight towards us. “I saw you in Berkeley years ago and again 10 years ago here during the festival.” she said to Thoth. “You’re the one who put that show on for me at the church.” Thoth said. They embraced and Thoth introduced me. Her name was Julie. “I was just thinking of you yesterday so I looked up your documentary and was lead to your website. I read your blog and saw that you were performing at St. Giles, so I had to come see you.” she said. We asked if she knew anyone at The Caves. She said she was willing to help us get some gigs there. The guy who talked to us about it a few weeks ago never got in touch with us. After about an hour, I went over and said hi to the guitarist and politely asked him when he’d be finished. “15 minutes. I’m just fooling around.” he said. It’s good for me to talk with other buskers. Usually I make Thoth do it. People are generally friendly here. It’s not like that in New York. Julie said she’d come back another day with her son, who was 4 last time Thoth saw him.
We barely gathered any crowds today. Kind of disappointing it being Thoth’s birthday and all, but we can only do what we can do. We even tried playing “Plucking Song,” one of our softest pieces. It hurt my voice. Prayforming at this spot isn’t very fun unless there’s a crowd. The crowds are the only thing that gives us any reflection. I wish we had a resonant space to play. Our music is meant for resonant spaces. It made me miss the Angel Tunnel. There, we usually have huge crowds during “Plucking Song.” We didn’t play very long. Neither of us felt exhilarated. We took some pictures and walked home.
We both got out of our costumes and changed for birthday dinner at Howie’s. My roots are pretty hideous right now so I put my hair up. Thoth wore his new kilt. We both felt very cute as we walked arm in arm to dinner. Some people on The Meadows waved at us. I think they recognized us from before. The food was excellent, but it wasn’t enough for me. Thoth had been to this place 10 years ago and it was one of his fondest memories. I’m glad we went there again. I was planning to get a scone, but all the shops were closed on the way home.
Happy Birthday to my beautiful husband, Thoth. I love you so much. Thank you for loving me and being my rock. Every day you amaze me. You are so silly. I admire your optimism and bravery. You inspire me to be the best person I can be. I am so blessed to have you in my life. You are my home and in my heart always. I love you forever.