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A Great Day for a Prayformance, Finally!!

Friday October 7th 2016

I was really not feeling it when I was trying to get ready today. For some reason I did myself up with makeup. I don’t know why. I was feeling so helpless. If that amplified trio comes down again today, I’ll loose it. I couldn’t smile on the train ride. 1Dan and Tina arrived at the Angel Tunnel to see us. I was in a bad mood, but having them there would help us. Their focus on us shows me we are being witnesses. They asked me why we don’t have physical copies of our new albums. “Because we have so many of the old ones. We have to sell those first. People only buy one CD, if any.” I said.

As we started playing, it was so peaceful and quiet I couldn’t really believe it. The entire time we played I expected to hear the trio start up, but they didn’t. As time continued on, they still didn’t start. I began relaxing and having fun. Tina was moving with the music and Dan was dancing with us and his camera, trying to capture a shot like he does. “Are you having fun?” I asked Dan. “I hope you’re having as much fun as I am. It looks like you are.” he said. That made me so happy. People were more generous and supportive today, thank goodness! I needed it! Really. It’s not just people’s generosity that makes a good day, it’s the connection we make with others.

A woman who follows my blog came to see us perform. “That angel is just a statue, you are the true angels of this park.” she said. What an incredible thing to say to us! People have said a lot of wonderful things over the years to us, but this is up there with the best. “And his laugh. His laughter is the icing on the cake.” she added. We were both so happy and buoyant, unlike the last few weeks. A good prayformance means everything to us.2

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Dan took us to the cafe in the park for dinner with Tina. I was so tired, and dreaming of doughnuts. We said goodbye to Dan and Tina in the subway and went home, laughing and smiling all the way. Bliss.

A Tiring, Difficult Week

Wednesday June 9th 2016

Tribal Baroque’s Wednesday vlog:

We had lunch at Ink. I’m filming everything all the time now. It was hard getting ready to play today. I was talking to my sister on Skype and she was sad and lonely. It’s hard to see her like that when I’m half way around the world from her. Poor baby. I didn’t really like my look either. It felt like it was going to be slow at our spot, and it was, but Victor came again and brought two friends. We played for an hour and a half and Victor and his friends stayed the entire time. I wasn’t feeling good because, low and behold, I got my period! We dropped our things at home and went out for pizza for dinner.

Lila’Angelique’s Sunday Vlog:

Thursday June 10th 2016

Tribal Baroque Thursday vlog:

We were emailed by Rose, telling us to move to another apartment this morning. It completely ruined our day. We were angry and uncomfortable all day. I sent an email back saying we didn’t want to move again. No response all day. The prayformance crowds were as slow as molasses. I got so frustrated at one point I wanted to cry after one audience took almost half a minute to clap after a song, and even then most of them didn’t clap. A couple sat for the entire prayformance and clapped. The girl was a big fan. “I’ve waited for 3 months for you to come.” she said. That cheered me up. We had burgers for dinner.

Friday June 11th 2016

Tribal Baroque’s Friday vlog:

Rose called and said we had to move out because 12 people were arriving in a half hour. She didn’t get my email. We were pissed as we packed up our stuff and it was brought downstairs. It was the LAST thing I wanted to do. Rose’s husband and Rui brought all our things downstairs, put them in their van, drove to the other apartment and brought it upstairs for us. We bumped into our friend Jorge and he took us to lunch at Ink down the street. That made us feel better. He reminded me I needed to make sure I get a response before assuming someone is going to do something. “Accountability.” he said.

Prayformance was rough for me. Audiences were again like molasses. I couldn’t smile. “Are you focused? I’m here. I’m your husband.” Thoth said. I accidentally dropped my new bow and it snapped.  I wanted to throw my violin on the ground and give up I was so frustrated. I was able to get through it and it got a bit better as it got later. We had Nepalese food near home for dinner. The guys who work at that place treat us so respectfully. I wish everyone in the world treated us like that.

Lila’Angelique’s Sunday Vlog:

Saturday June 12th 2016

Tribal Baroque’s Saturday vlog:

I had a better day today. We had lunch at Ink Farm Food Cafe and I edited vlogs all day. We didn’t play at 56 Rua Garrett until 9pm. It got better last night as it got later, and it did tonight. We had the best night we’ve had in a week. I realized I haven’t smiled during prayformance all week. I smiled tonight, a lot. We were both full of energy and I improvised a lot more and had fun with the music. It makes such a big difference when people are focused on us. We were brimming over with energy and went to Nood for dinner.

Lila’Angelique’s Sunday Vlog:

Sunday June 13th 2016

Tribal Baroque’s Sunday vlog:

Sunday was St. Anthony’s Day here in Lisbon. I didn’t eat anything all day, saving myself for a sushi dinner at Miss Jappa after prayformance that night. There were tons of people out and vendors selling fish and sangria and beer. Nuts. A guy tried to kiss me, or something. We played at 56 Rua Garrett from 8:30 to 10pm. The entire night people were walking past us, headed to the parade or up to the square to get drunk. They were immensely unfocused. A man who had seen our show on Saturday night came and sat and watched us for most of the prayformance. If we had not had a good night on Saturday, I wouldn’t have felt so great about the night, but I managed to have fun. We were both tired when we finished. We dropped our things off at home and went to dinner at 11pm.

Lila’Angelique’s Sunday Vlog:

One Week in Lisboa!

Wednesday May 26th 2016

We had a hard day. I’d been sick all weekend and my mind was working against me. All of this was eased, thankfully, by a beautiful, well attended prayformance at 56 Rua Garrett. I am so grateful we have that space to play in. So grateful. If we couldn’t play there, we couldn’t come to Europe in the summer.

I find that when we expect nothing, we usually have a great prayformance. If you expect nothing, something is bound to please you. We started up at 8pm, and a very big crowd of people gathered around us. It was astounding for a regular weekday night. We continued to play, and our friend with red hair showed up. She used to watch us play all the time, and cried when we left a few years ago. She embraced us when we finished our song. I love playing in that spot. It feels theatrical with the light pointed up at us and we are welcome there. Having a light here in Lisboa and in New York’s Central Park is a great for getting people’s attention. In November, when the sun goes down in NYC, the light shining at us playing music in costume is beautiful.

We played for an hour and a half. Didn’t want to overdo it when we have four more prayformances to go this week, and I’m still a little stuffy. I’m very happy I have been able to sing through this illness. Usually I can’t, and I would have been incredibly disheartened to have lost these first four or five prayformances in Lisboa. I don’t know what to do with myself when we’re not prayforming. It is my whole life. It’s what keeps me stable. Otherwise, I have a hard time coping with my chosen lifestyle. Everything starts breaking down in my mind. I guess you can say the hard thing about having found something I love to do is that when I’m not doing it, I’m out of sorts.

I am so happy to be here. I have to go cuddle with Bunny now.