Monday July 7th 2014
I hopped out of bed today, which is unusual for me. “Isn’t life wonderful?” I thought to myself. “I can get up and meet amazing people and do whatever I want. I’m so happy to be alive.” I worked on yesterday’s blog and finished watching ‘Titanic.’ When that was done, I continued reading ‘1984.’ We went to the corner store and got food for dinner. I got myself a San Pelegrino blood orange soda and a berry granola bar for a treat. I was going to have cheese burgers for dinner. They didn’t have the patties I’m used to getting, so I got some others. The store always plays classical music. They were playing one of my favorite pieces, the Mendelssohn Violin Concerto 3rd Movement.
We went home and I looked it up on Youtube. It used to be one of my favorite pieces ever. I wanted so desperately to play it. I found some coloratura soprano videos that blew my mind. The kind of notes they’re hitting is astounding. I especially love Lily Pons’ ‘Lakme’ aria at 3:22. Unbelievable! I then found a creepy Edgar Allen Poe animation of ‘The Tell Tale Heart.’ I used to spend hours reading his stuff. One night when I was growing up in Nashville, I sat on the porch looking at the rain memorizing ‘The Raven.’ Though I never liked Nashville, it sure had some great thunderstorms. I think I memorized the whole thing in a few hours. It was such an eerie experience, reading the lines to myself. I used to love dark, rainy days. They make me quite depressed now. I also love ‘The Cask of Amontillado’ and ‘The Pit and the Pendulum.’ (Read them if you haven’t already.) I guess I can thank high school for that. Our school went to see a play where an actor performed ‘The Tell Tale Heart.’ I loved it, but I don’t think anyone else did. I was such an odd child. I was into Shakespeare, Poe, Verdi, Mozart while everyone else was listening to, ugh, Britney Spears and the Spice Girls. I never liked popular music. I despised it with a passion to be honest. I’m convinced pop music kills brain cells. I took pride in being an odd ball growing up, still do. I love Phantom and Sweeney Todd, Joseph Merrik, Stephen Sondheim and Anthony Hopkins. I love dark, older, grotesque men or men who create those characters. I have an affiliation with Phantom that is so wound up in me, I don’t think it will ever dissipate entirely. I am still so drawn to the character Erik. He’s misunderstood, like I am. I tend to gravitate towards men who remind me of him. I’m attracted free spirits, people who don’t follow societies standards of what is acceptable.
I finally bought my dances shoes. I had them sent to my dad. He will ship them to me when he gets them. I hope they arrive in time for Rio! I continued reading and had my snack bar and a soda. What a lovely treat! I love ‘1984.’ I have quite a different perspective on it now after having read it previously. I love reading books twice. You see a lot more.
We went to the kitchen to make dinner. As I cooked the patties, they started looking strange. “Are those beef patties?” Thoth asked. I looked on the package. “No, they’re pork. Damn! Now I have to go out again.” I said. “It’s simple, really. You can go down and see if they have beef.” Thoth said. “Why would they have it now if they didn’t have it before?” I said. “Well, try it and see if you like it.” Thoth said. “I don’t want to eat this. The smell makes me sick.” I said. I threw everything away and started moping. “I’m gonna go look for you. I’ll be right back.” Thoth said. I read my Kindle to calm myself down. I hate when that happens! I was ready to eat! Thoth came back empty handed. “I was going to go to Scotmed, but you’d wonder where I was.” he said. “Oh Bunny, that’s so sweet.” I said. “Should I go to the store?” he asked. “No, I’ll go.” I said. I put my shoes on and brought my iPod with me. “Don’t be long. I want to eat with you.” Thoth said. “I’ll be as fast as I can.” I said. The store was closed, so I had to go back to the corner store. I was going to get chicken, but they didn’t have any so I got salmon. “The store was closed so I’m gonna make salmon wraps.” I said. “I was going to get you that.” Thoth said. I made dinner and went back to the room. I watched some videos of Thoth. “Who is that?” Thoth said being silly. “That’s you!” I said. He got in bed and I cuddled with him before he fell asleep. I went in the bathroom so I wouldn’t bother him and watched some James Swanton videos until 2am. Before I went to bed, I found a video of a new puppet animation by Toby Froud called ‘Lessons Learned.’ Looks interesting…