Today was 83 degrees outside. The bike ride was really hard for me. I was tired and overheated. I slipped when going around a corner in the park and fell off my bike. It wasn’t that bad. I hit my leg. Thoth heard me fall and rushed over to me. He held me and started to cry. “Don’t cry baby!” I said snuggling him.
Della Kate Flower, a Postulate Sister of Perpetual Indulgence, came to see us. He had taken the bus from an hour away! We talked to him while we got ready. He texted Sister Ida to let them know we were playing in the park, hoping he would come. After playing a few pieces, Sister Ida arrived. We were both so happy. They stayed through the entire prayformance, showing support by clapping. Ida bought three CDs. “Buy their CD and show some support.” someone said watching us in the grass. I recognized his face. It’s interesting when someone in the audience says that and people just smile and walk away. It was another very slow Friday. “Why don’t you play in the front?” a woman asked. “Because it’s better for us back here.” Thoth said simply. It’s true. “It’s deceiving up there.” I said. The people who watched us, though few in number, loved us.
Though we did a great prayformance and got through it, I wasn’t feeling so good. The hot day, plus the slow audiences made me doubtful of myself. Our music needs crowds to really expand, at least that’s my opinion. We still sound great without big audiences, but I feel more energetic when we have lots of people around.
We biked home and I was feeling faint. I had to sit down in the grass for a minute. When we got home, the house was very muggy and hot. Thoth turned on the fan in our room and I lay down in bed. He brought me a cold compress for my head. It made me feel much better. I called my sister. She’s writing something I’m excited about and wanted to talk to me about it. We made our flight itinerary for the summer to send to Sarah and Wendy, our Martha’s Vineyard sponsors, to double check with them before buying them.
I watched our prayformance on my computer, which we recorded with our camera today. I can see the things we need to work on. I wonder if anyone else would enjoy watching it.
Yesterday was really nice. I got up and practiced singing in the morning. My voice took over and hour to warm up. I sang for over an hour and a half. Probably better if I make it an hour. I don’t want to injure myself. I had a lot of phlegm. I should have started by warming up in the shower. I practiced vocal runs and got up to 86 on the metronome, which wasn’t very fast. When I tried to go any faster, my voice became sluggish. Every day will be different with practicing.
When I finished, I spent the rest of the day coloring my fantasy map, then in the afternoon we rehearsed our opera. I started out feeling uninspired and frustrated. I cuddled into Thoth’s arms and he made me feel better. We worked on some of the pieces we haven’t been playing in the park and figured out middle sections for them. By the end, we wrote down all our new pieces and their musical sections so we don’t forget. It’s important to work on all the pieces equally, so some pieces don’t look more rehearsed than others when we perform in Martha’s Vineyard. I’mvery excited and encouraged by the work we’ve been doing. Our work schedule is working well.
This morning I got up and warmed up my voice in the shower, then practiced singing for an hour. It went much better. I got my vocal runs up to 100 on the metronome and it felt effortless. Yesterday I was feeling an annoying blockage in my throat when I sang. I didn’t feel that today. I took it easy until I felt more comfortable. I was able to sing my high E, too. Yay! It’s interesting to learn how to practice on my own. I used to think I needed to have a voice teacher. The metronome is a fantastic tool for speeding up. I’ve always wanted to learn how to sing faster. It takes practice.
We decided not to go out to play today. It was overcast and rainy. I got dressed in my galaxy skirt and took a bike ride to put our check in the bank. I love taking bike rides! It was rainy. Listening to music (in one ear of course) while biking is so much fun! Some people were giving thumbs up and staring at me. When I was stopped at a light, a man came over to me and acted all weird. He liked how I looked, and tried to give me something. I think it was pot or a piece of candy. He was really creepy. He kissed my hand in a creepy, sloppy way. Gross. I wasn’t scared, though. Most people are harmless, and I do feel I can take care of myself, but I wish people wouldn’t do that. In New York one night I was hanging out with my sister and this really awesomely dressed guy ran over to me and hugged me. It was fantastic. He was friendly, with no ulterior motives. At least I don’t get cat called. To my memory that’s only happened to both me and Thoth in Lisbon, but it was funny and kind of sweet. They were construction workers and I think they thought Thoth was a girl! I was bothered a few times by guys in New York when I first moved there in 2009, but I took care of it just fine. Being a unique woman in the world teaches you how to be assertive and not take people’s bull shit. I remember last when Thoth and I were talking to a woman on the street in NYC on Halloween and a man just blundered his way over to me and tried to touch me. I immediately pushed him off and walked away. No problem. I don’t need to be rude, I just stop the behavior and get away from the person. Oh and one time I was hanging out in Union Square and a guy started following me. I sat down, and when he sat down, too, I asked him very bluntly why he was following me. He was so embarrassed, and that was that. Assertiveness! I would say prayformance has also taught me that, too. People have always (thought not too often these days) gotten in our way during prayformance. We area making music in a public space. I’ve learned to be discerning and a peacemaker. I know how to deal with assholes, get away from them as fast as possible! Thank god most people I’ve met are very kind and respectful. When someone is rude or disrespectful towards Thoth, on the other hand, he becomes a monster. It takes a real dumb ass to get him going, though. When I got home, we practiced for a few hours. It feels so good to practice. I got a galaxy top in the mail. We will be prayforming tomorrow! Yay!
The doorbell rang this morning. Thoth was out shopping for groceries. I got up and went outside. The UPS truck was just pulling away. I ran over and stopped him. He handed me a thin package and had me sign for it. I went back inside and opened it. Lo and behold, it was our check for our opera commission!
That was the highlight of the day. Thoth came back with lots of yummy foods. We ate lunch at 3:30 and were both shocked it was so late. We started rehearsal at 4.Thoth is really helping me with improvisation, and we came up with another ostinato. My galaxy skirt arrived. It’s so cute!
I redyed my hair. I love it. I’m no longer afraid to use blue or purple in my hair. They look fantastic! I think I was born to have multicolored, unicorn hair. It’s inspiring me to try new hairstyles, like braids.
We practiced today. It went well. Thoth is a wonderful teacher. Today he worked with me on listening more and playing less when we improvise. It’s actually really hard! I sing in phrases naturally because I have to breathe, but it’s easy to just play and play when I play violin. We came up with a couple new ostanitos, too.
My kawaii sneakers with unicorns came in the mail. I’m in love! They look like my hair!
The tiny white LED sparkle lights came, too. I wrapped them around my bike when we finished practicing. They look awesome. I think I’ll get some more.
I love my husband dearly. I love cuddling into his cheek and holding him. He says I’m so sweet. I love especially when he pets me or touches me of his own accord. It still gives me butterflies. He said we are more intimate than he’s ever been with anyone. That’s odd because we don’t have sex. 😛
Thoth started working on a composite for our “Esh and Ee-ay” CD cover. Dad said he’s going to start mastering it next week. Things are moving along.
We prayform on Friday in Balboa Park. I’m looking forward to it!