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Final Days with Sis and Back to Prayformance

Wednesday November 16th 2016

First day playing at the Angel Tunnel in what feels like forever! I did some strange, experimental makeup today. Sis hugged and kissed us goodbye. It’s been a very long 10 days since she got here.

The park and tunnel were dead silent. Not many people around. The fountain had been switched off, which added to the stillness. We played to very thin crowds. After “Sea Expressions,” no one clapped at all. They didn’t even move. Just stood there. I’ll never understand it, nor will Thoth. As the darkness came, it got better for us. I left to use the restroom while Thoth did his solo and a woman said she was amazed by us and our music. Even when I’m not in the best mood and not in my best form, people are still blown away by us.

Thoth is the best husband. He takes good care of me and loves me and kisses me. I love him more than anyone else. He sits on the thrown in the center of my heart. He took me to sushi dinner and got me lemon cake and chai tea for dessert. Tomorrow is the 7th year anniversary of the formation of Tribal Baroque. It was really nice to have a day just to ourselves.

Tuesday November 15th 2016

Sis woke me up around 10am. She was anxious to go out again and see another show tonight. I wasn’t so much. I went into the tent while she and Thoth worked on computers and acted for three hours. It was wonderful. I’m really wanting to act these days. After that, we three left the get lunch. I was in a bad mood. Sis had gotten a ticket to see a show I didn’t want to see. I was hoping we’d see Phantom again (which I found out doesn’t play on Tuesdays.) We got food at the grocery store and went home. The internet died and sis went out to see her show. I joined her in town afterwards to have dinner. It was nice. She’s leaving tomorrow. I’ll be glad to have my life back.

Monday November 14th 2016

Sis and I spent the entire day together. On the train into the city, a woman asked if I’d performed in Central Park last night. She was fascinated by us. We got off at 4th Street and walked through Washington Square Park. A couple also recognized me and asked me lots of questions. It was amazing. Two times in one day, who’d seen us the same night, within an hour of each other! It made me realize we need new business cards.

We had lunch and walked to 8th Street. We sat in a park and then walked back to get tickets for Blue Man Group for tonight. I called Thoth, who had just gone to see a movie. “I look so cute.” he said. We walked around more, and had a snack at Whole Foods before heading to the theater at 7pm. The show was great. I laughed a lot and the Blue Men stared at me. I love interacting with performers. After the show, we had dinner at Whole Foods and went home. It was a wonderful day.

Lovely Words From Fans Makes Me Feel Better

Monday July 27th 2015

I felt wonderful when I went to bed last night. After writing this long depressing blog, our friend Jadelyn (who we’re staying with in NYC in the Fall) wrote to me. She offered us a free month of rent, hoping that that will help us to be able to go to London. Thoth doesn’t want to go because we can’t perform there, and he really loves Amsterdam. I really want to go to London, but I doubt it will work out. It’s so nice to feel welcomed in New York, though! It’s the first time we’ll be living with friends for the entire 3 months. That lifts a lot of stress off our backs.

I got a bunch of sweet messages from fans that made me all teary eyed. That’s what I needed, to know that people care when I’m having a down day! Thank you to everyone who wrote to me. I need to know people love me and care about what I’m doing. Leaving a positive, supportive comment means more to me than you’ll ever know. I fucking HATE getting depressed and I dislike writing about it too, but it helps to divulge my feelings on my blog. People writing back supportively helps even more. That’s what the blog is for. Sharing and caring.

People always tell me I’m fearless, but I’m not. Somedays I get so submerged with fear and sadness I can’t think clearly. I’m afraid, but I don’t let it stop me from doing what I want to do with my life.

We walked up to the park to have scones and lemonade. The couple in the next table were the ones who complimented us the other night (saying they loved our voice and the wife is an opera singer.) They waved hello in acknowledgment. It was cool and breezy and pleasant. IMG_20150727_155915 IMG_20150727_155945 I’m in love with my magical hair. IMG_20150727_155644427 IMG_20150727_155729448On the way home we stopped at Pensao Atalaia to say hello to Maria. She was sleeping, but Vonda was there. We said hi and told her how things are going. “They’re like family.” Thoth said as we left. We bought a chicken and some spinach and Thoth made us a wonderful home cooked dinner. I’m so lucky to have such a loving husband. Last night I thought I would be sad forever, but I perked up today. Everything will be ok. We do have a community of people who love us. I’m grateful for that.

Sushi Time with my Husband

Tuesday November 4th 2014

When I woke up, Thoth seemed to be getting his laundry together. “Are you doing laundry?” I asked. “Yes.” he said. He gave me a kiss and left. I spent the time acting. I haven’t acted in a while. It was so lovely. Thoth came home at noon and I called Sushi Yasuda, but they didn’t have any reservations for lunch. Thoth called them back and reserved us a table for a 6 o’clock dinner. Yay!

We got dressed and went down the street to the bagel place. Thoth got his favorite bagel and I got a smoothie. I wanted to fast until dinnertime. We went home and I bleached my roots. Thoth helped me do the back. It only takes about an hour when he helps me. I washed out the bleach and put in some purple shampoo to whiten the roots. It looks so pretty. I’m going to pink-afy it on Thursday. We’re going out to play tomorrow at the Angel Tunnel, so I want to look pretty.

Thoth was feeling sad for Sal. “I wish we had more money. Now I realize $40,000 isn’t really a lot to ask. Sal had a more ambitious vision for the film. We ended up being so alone yesterday. It made me sad.” he said. “Hopefully it will come out well. I believe in Sal. You should have seen how hard he was working yesterday,” I said.

I sat down to surf the internet and started feeling odd. My palms and the bottoms of my feet were sweaty and I felt nauseous. “I don’t feel good.” I said to Thoth. He came over and sat with me on the bed and pet me. I felt shaky. “I think I’m hungry.” I said. “You should have had a bagel with me.” he said. “I haven’t eaten much the past few days.” I said. “Do you want me to cancel the reservation?” he asked. “No.” I said.

We got ready and took the subway to 14th Street. Thoth held me close. “I’ll always be here for my girl. Always.” he said as we descended the stairs. “I feel like your daughter sometimes. It’s very comforting.” I said on the subway. “Oh yes?” he said. We were the first people in the restaurant. They had just opened. We were seated next to the heater. “I feel hot.” I said wiping my brow. We asked them to turn the heat down and switched seats. The place filled up fast. We ordered our sushi. It was such a perfect size. Bite size sushi. That’s how it should be. I gag if it’s is too big. I used to hate small portions, but now I can appreciate the delicate flavor and unique taste. The fish was so fresh. I’d never tasted sushi so delicious. “I want to cry.” Thoth said tasting his. I ordered another sushi combination and we got some a la cart rolls. The salmon roll was creamy. I think they mince the fish up. God it was so good! We’ve never spent so much money on sushi. It was worth it. “It’s a celebration.” Thoth said.

I asked Thoth why he doesn’t kiss me more of his own accord. “Because you do.” he said. “What if I don’t as much?” I asked. “You won’t be able to.” I said. We made out on the corner. “I’m feeling much better.” I said. He kissed me all the way home. It made me twitter with happiness. He’s such a sweet husband. “No one loves me as much as you do.” I said.