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A Magical, Wonderful Final Prayformance in Balboa Park!

Sunday May 3rd 2015

I did some frilly makeup today.

Today's look.

Today’s look.

I even braided my hair. I love when my roots are all white. Got to be all pretty for our final prayformance!

Pretty braids.

Pretty braids.

We got a Square, which enables us to accept credit cards in the park. We’ve always wanted to get one, but we didn’t have a smartphone. I also wondered if it would cost money, but you’re only charged a small percentage per sale.

Forrest and Tasha arrived to pick us up. As we were setting up to play, lots of people showed up and we were able to use Square immediately. Forrest, Tasha, Bill, Ali, Becca, Mel, Carissa, Ida, Yeshe, Tony, Kevin and many people who’s names I don’t know came. It made me SO happy. We’ve jumped a level, just like THAT! I told Forrest and he was very happy for us. I was sure lots of people were coming, but of course I was super happy that many people came.

The fans.

The fans.

The view.

The view.

More and more people showed up as we played. Such lovely fans and friends! We are so lucky to have so many wonderful friends! Since Thursday’s filming of the opera, we have worked out more things, it’s fantastic. We took requests after playing the opera. “‘Waltz’!” Ali said. “‘Gypsy Dance’!” Kevin said. “If we played ‘Romanza’ would that make you happy?” I asked Forrest. “Yes.” he said. We started with ‘Romanza,’ but we both had no idea what key it was in. Fuck. Eventually we let it go and came up with something new. We had so many fans there, lots of them noticed. I like that they noticed. When we finished, Forrest said at one point he could tell things were going a different direction and said “This is gonna be awesome.” “What was that second to last piece?” Mel asked. “It was supposed to be ‘Romanza,’ but we forgot what key it was in. It turned into ‘Sea Expressions.'” I said. “It was a mashup.” Mel said laughing.

We hugged our friends and packed up for dinner. Bill cried. He always cries when we leave. Forrest, Tasha and Della waited for us. We were both in high spirits and laughing. I was cursing like I do, which makes Forrest laugh a lot. “I’m only doing it to make him laugh.” I said.

Forrest carrying our violin cases.

Forrest carrying our violin cases.

We all 5 of us drove to dinner at King’s Fish House. 10 people came. It was so pleasant. Tribal Baroque fans unite! I am so happy to have so many friends and fans here. It makes coming here so wonderful and fun. 

On the way home, Forrest said, (I’m paraphrasing here.) “Even when you think you totally suck, you’re blowing people’s minds.” It’s hard to remember that, but it’s true. We need a little Forrest in our pockets so whenever we’re sad we can take him out and he says nice things!

Thank you friends. Thank you San Diego. Thank you for loving us. Thank you for caring about us. Thank you for making us feel welcome here. Thank you for coming to see us. It means so much to us that we have support here. It means so much to us that people love our music. It’s taken so long to develop a strong group of friends. Now whenever we travel, I’m looking forward to seeing our friends. Even the most beautiful city in the world feels empty without friends. Forrest, Tasha, Mel and Carissa have all mentioned coming to see us in New York. God that would be so much fun!!!!!!! I can’t wait to see all our friends in the Bay Area!


Magic is Happening for Us

Sunday March 15th 2015

Forrest came to pick us up and took us to the park to prayform. I knew it was going to be too hot again to bike. He’s so gracious. “You look so beautiful!” he said.

We talked about our lack of interest in having children. He has a friend who is married with a few kids and he’s miserable. We have a friend in the same situation. It’s interesting how Forrest has such strong feelings about this like we do. “You go to school basically so your parents can get you out of their hair. You don’t learn the tools to live life. Then you go to college and you can’t get a job. Then you get a menial job and spend years paying off your college debt. Then you buy a house that puts you in more debt and get a better job you absolutely hate to pay for a house you’re never in. Then you get married and have kids and you hate your life and then you die.” I said. Thoth giggled from the back seat. “What’s funny?” I asked. “You. A jaded little 27 year old. It’s my fault.” he said. “Yes. I am jaded.” I said. “You’re very lucky. You’re doing exactly what you should be doing.” Forrest said.

He dropped us at our spot. There were some people sitting in the corner where we usually get ready. They left when we started setting up. Forrest came back after parking his car, and Tasha, his girlfriend came, too. “You look so beautiful!” she said. As we played, our friends started to show up. Mel and her girlfriend came with a few of their friends. They even brought chairs, blankets and umbrellas to sit in the grass! “I love you!” I said to Mel. I LOVE, like seriously I FUCKING LOVE when people come to the park specifically to see us. It makes me so FUCKIN’ HAPPY. I’m SERIOUSLY SO FREAKIN HAPPY we’re get to play new music for our fans. It feels so good! I could see Bill watching from his usual space in the back. Cara, her partner and their little baby came to see us, too! I haven’t seen her since last year! Her baby is so beautiful! She seems so happy, and her partner loved us. It was his first time seeing us. Mel brought some virgins, too. I had one of them ring our bell. I was in a good mood all day. 4 totally different groups of people came from all over San Diego to see us today. Thoth could tell I was in a good mood. I’ve been down the past couple days, so I let all the joy and love really sink in today. I realize that despite that people have said some supportive things to us the past few days, I wasn’t really letting it in. Inside I was thinking, “No, I’m not that good.” Today I let every word fill me up completely with all the love the person was feeling. I was so happy and friendly to everyone, and we sold a lot of CDs. People can’t really tell when I’m having a bad day, but they sure can tell when I’m having a good day! It was 5pm, our usual time to finish, when we had finished playing the opera. We continued to play until 5:30 because I wanted to play some of our old music. I was so happy! 

The pieces are starting to coalesce. There are some endings and sections I want to change, but we’ll figure it all out eventually. We still have 5 months until the Martha’s Vineyard shows. We’re way ahead of the game. I’d rather be ahead than behind. I was confident today and filled my head with positive thoughts. When I really listened to what people said, no one said, “You suck.” or any of the things that go through my head sometimes. Actually, if someone said the things I say to myself in my head, I’d think they were a nutcase. Everyone says, “Your voice is amazing.” or “Your music is so beautiful.” or “You touched my heart.” No one in the history of my life has said I suck or I’m bad at what I do, because I’m not. So why do I say that to myself??? “You need to stop it.” Forrest said. Yup. I do.

Forrest drove us home. We ordered pizza as a treat. I was in a fantastic mood. I watched some videos of “What DJs Really Do” because I was genuinely curious what a DJ does live. That video explains it perfectly. I generally don’t like DJs. This video explains exactly how I feel about them.