Friday June 25th 2016
I acted for 4 hours when I got up, had a vegetarian lunch and watched some “best acting of all time” clips while getting ready to play. It was inspiring! I don’t understand how to act, but when I see good actors I know which ones are the best. It’s a particular look they have, the way they carry themselves and how they speak. My favorite actors are Daniel Day Lewis, Anthony Hopkins, Kevin Spacey, Sharlto Copley, Ralph Finnes, Jim Carrey, Robin Williams, Johnny Depp and Gary Oldman. There are others. All men of course, and all intense in their own ways. I love intensity.
I got all dressed up tonight, for some reason. I was inspired I guess. I’ve come to realize that dressing up isn’t for the audience, it’s for me. It helps me prayform better, feel more confident and have more fun. I like being outrageous and doing something with my look people don’t do.
Elisa and her boyfriend came to see us for the second time since we’ve been here. We knew it would be a great prayformance evening for us when we saw them. We love when fans come to see us! It makes us feel appreciated and loved! They stayed for the full two hour prayformance. They even dressed up. It was a fantastic night. When we finished, she gave me a new Babe she’d made just for me! OMGGGGG!!!!!!!!! So cute!!!! I feel so happy when people love our work. It makes me feel like a completely different person.
There were lots of gay men in the street. It’s Gay Pride this weekend. They loved my look, but were quite drunk. 🙂 We had dinner at the Italian place we used to go to, called Boteo, in Barrio Alto. It used to be called Mama Rosa. The chef remembered us and gave us free drinks and toasted with us. He was so handsome! He reminds me of our friend Michael C. from the Bay Area. The food is better than it’s ever been there. Highly recommended! I love when people treat us well, like celebrities. It was a fantastic end to our night.
I am so lucky to be living this life! I get to rest and do whatever I want in the house all day, have a delicious lunch, then get dressed up and go out to play for a couple hours. We have fans who come see us, then have a delicious dinner at a restaurant where the chef loves us! I’ve worked so hard and long to be able to experience happy times like these. There was a time when we were here back when we first arrived in 2010 and we weren’t doing well at all. I was terrified then, but look at us now! I have to tough out the hard times to be able to again enjoy the joyous times. There’s no reason for us to go anywhere else in the summer but Lisbon. People love us, the restaurants love us. We have a place to live a 10 minute walk away from our prayformance spot. We seem to get more an more famous every year we come here.
Imagine when it’s been 10 years of us coming to Lisbon or San Diego. We’re quite well known in those cities now, but imagine what it will be like then? Or 20 years! I didn’t think about that when we first started traveling. We’re getting famous, but we’re doing it the slower, more organic way. Each person who becomes a fan meets us and speaks to us face to face. Each person discovers us in a different way, and they don’t forget us. It does pay off to stick with your art. It does!!
Saturday May 21st 2016
I slept until 1:30pm! Ugh! I wasn’t able to get much done before prayformance, and I was feeling sick. I got it from Thoth. He started crying because he felt bad for getting me sick. I decided to skip the outlandish makeup and just put some white eyeliner around my eyes and on my eyelashes. I felt naked. It was an amazing prayformance. Two women from Temecula CA asked me what culture I was from. “I’m American.” I said. “No, your heritage.” they said. “I have mostly English and Irish in me.” I said. “Your skin tone is amazing.” they said. “Usually I wear lots of makeup, so that means a lot.” I said. It really did. People say that when I do makeup-free vlogs, but I don’t think anyone has ever said that to me in public. I don’t have to wear makeup to be beautiful. Our friend Mike said that to me once, but I don’t think I really believed him until now.
“The range you both have is amazing.” the two Cali women said. “I’m not even singing very high today. I’m sick.” I said. When I’m sick, I realize how little I have to sing to make an impression on people. I didn’t sing as much as I usually do tonight, nor did I sing as high as I usually do, but it didn’t matter to anyone watching us. We had big crowds, big applause and lots of CD sales. 🙂 It was so nice how loudly those women clapped and cheered for us.
A fellow busker stopped by when we finished. He said he’s having a hard time making a living these days. I felt bad for him, but it gave me perspective on our lives. We’re so lucky to be able to play in the spot we play here, and in all the spots we play all over the world. We are lucky to have the right skills to be able to live simply by doing this work. Well, not simply, but when we have a good day, I feel like I can conquer the f**king world.