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Dark, Rainy Play Days

Friday October 21st 2016

I got all dressed up as usual in 1…..

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We went home and of course the f**king sun came out. Oh well! I hate loosing a prayformance day. We got something to eat and relaxed until time to have dinner. I love where we live. It’s so homey and safe and cozy, completely the opposite of last year!

Thursday October 20th 2016

I was inspired again today so I went for it with my makeup.

1 2 3 4I’m having fun vlogging again. Sometimes it gets so hard. I notice no one has commented on my blog for over a month. We need to find a way to drive traffic to my blog and our vlog channels. I think we’ll make brochures or something to give out in the park. Most people take pictures and videos of us and don’t bother getting our names before walking away. We have to find a way to draw more people to Tribal Baroque after they’ve seen us. I’ve always said if someone wants to look us up, we’re very easily accessible but today I saw how most every person watching us left without knowing who we are. The other thing is I don’t want to be giving away more free shit to people who are already taking our music, pictures and videos for free. There needs to be some kind of compensation. We should be getting hundreds of dollars per person for what they’re experiencing from us, but we get %1 of that. We do attract a huge amount of attention to ourselves when doing what we do. If people want to know who we are, they can easily do that. We can’t force them to. I kind of like making it a little more difficult. A lot of people recently have told us they came looking for us and didn’t know our name.

We had a fine play. Not the best. I got a bit discouraged when people weren’t so into clapping or coming forward, but some people were very moved and talked to us and bought CDs eventually. Our friend Jessie showed up out of nowhere and cheered me right up. She’s my favorite person (other than ourselves) who sings in the tunnel, as far as classical singers go. Not only does she have a pure, pleasant, she is a pleasant and genuinely respectful and loving person! We need more people like that. I love Cover Story, too because they are also genuinely friendly, talented and hard working. I made some vlogs and we went to 23rd St. to get salads. I saw two girls, one with light blue hair and one with light pink hair. Unusual.

A Great Day for a Prayformance, Finally!!

Friday October 7th 2016

I was really not feeling it when I was trying to get ready today. For some reason I did myself up with makeup. I don’t know why. I was feeling so helpless. If that amplified trio comes down again today, I’ll loose it. I couldn’t smile on the train ride. 1Dan and Tina arrived at the Angel Tunnel to see us. I was in a bad mood, but having them there would help us. Their focus on us shows me we are being witnesses. They asked me why we don’t have physical copies of our new albums. “Because we have so many of the old ones. We have to sell those first. People only buy one CD, if any.” I said.

As we started playing, it was so peaceful and quiet I couldn’t really believe it. The entire time we played I expected to hear the trio start up, but they didn’t. As time continued on, they still didn’t start. I began relaxing and having fun. Tina was moving with the music and Dan was dancing with us and his camera, trying to capture a shot like he does. “Are you having fun?” I asked Dan. “I hope you’re having as much fun as I am. It looks like you are.” he said. That made me so happy. People were more generous and supportive today, thank goodness! I needed it! Really. It’s not just people’s generosity that makes a good day, it’s the connection we make with others.

A woman who follows my blog came to see us perform. “That angel is just a statue, you are the true angels of this park.” she said. What an incredible thing to say to us! People have said a lot of wonderful things over the years to us, but this is up there with the best. “And his laugh. His laughter is the icing on the cake.” she added. We were both so happy and buoyant, unlike the last few weeks. A good prayformance means everything to us.2

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Dan took us to the cafe in the park for dinner with Tina. I was so tired, and dreaming of doughnuts. We said goodbye to Dan and Tina in the subway and went home, laughing and smiling all the way. Bliss.