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Walking through the Botanical Gardens and Going to Sintra!

Monday June 16th 2015

Today we went to the Botanical Gardens. It was really lovely. It was serene walking through the trees hand in hand. It’s amazing we’re living in this beautiful city for the summer. The gardens were just down the street from home, So lovely!

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We had lunch at Cevicheria. It was a kinda fancy seafood place with an interesting menu. I forgot to take pictures of the food I was so hungry. The ambiance was really nice.

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We stopped at the park on the way home. IMG_20150615_162319705 IMG_20150615_162436935

 

When we got home, Vonda said someone from Chapito called us. We called back. Thoth couldn’t understand what they wanted. It sounded like they wanted us to come to a performance. Maria’s son came over later and said they want us to perform before the show. The acoustics in the space are good. The woman who runs the place met us a few weeks ago at Chapito when we went there to have lunch. He told her all about us, but she didn’t look us up on the internet. She has no idea what we do. He said he would bring us there tomorrow night so we could see the space and the rehearsal. We’ve known about Chapito for 4 years. This is the first time they’ve invited us to perform for them.

Tuesday June 17th 2015

Today we went to Sintra for lunch. Before leaving, I redyed my hair.

My new hair!

My new hair!

It was another immensely pleasant day off. I’m so grateful for the life we have!

Walking to the train station.

Walking to the train station.

Getting on the train.

Getting on the train.

I listened to Enya on the train ride. I was listening to her when we were taking the long bus ride from Edinburgh to London around this time last year. It made me feel so grateful. We live such an amazing life. We’re able travel all over the world our own dime.

The castle on the hill.

The castle on the hill.

A spot we thought of playing at a long time ago.

A spot we thought of playing at a long time ago.

A pretty statue.

A pretty statue.

The palace entrance where we played in 2010.

The palace entrance where we played in 2010.

We were hoping to have lunch at a teahouse near the train station, but it was closed, instead we walked to the palace and had lunch at a tourist trap. It was delicious. “We really need to enjoy ourselves when we do things like this.” Thoth said.

Thoth's big beer.

Thoth’s big beer.

Eating polvo salad.

Eating polvo salad.

Hair color inspiration.

Hair color inspiration.

We walked around a bit before taking the train home. Sintra is so beautiful. It holds a special place in our hearts.

Thoth on a cute street.

Thoth on a cute street.

A pretty view.

A pretty view.

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More pretty buildings.

More pretty buildings.

Another pretty statue.

Another pretty statue.

Goodbye Sintra

Goodbye Sintra.

We rested for a few hours when we got home, then Maria’s son picked us up to take us to Chapito’s rehearsal for their student’s final performance. The car ride was very bumpy. 
The space was incredible. It was an old primary school. We talked with different people, discussing where we would perform. We decided to play at the top of the staircase where the acoustics are best. I think it will be fun. The students were warming up for their rehearsal. We looked around and I took lots of pictures. IMG_20150616_214956286 IMG_20150616_215007820 IMG_20150616_215022467 IMG_20150616_215045246 IMG_20150616_215143044 IMG_20150616_215309484 IMG_20150616_215312326 IMG_20150616_215320068 IMG_20150616_220225881 IMG_20150616_220931712

I was hungry and tired, so our friend said he’d take us home. We’ll see the show on Thursday. The matron wants us to perform at 9pm before the show and a little bit after the show. It’s so odd that she has no idea what we do. She told us the theme of the show is freedom. “Can you fit into that?” she asked. She has no clue. We ARE freedom. She even asked us if we were good. That’s such an odd question. “Nah, we’re not that good.” we said laughing. She also said something like she hopes we’re not too big because the show is about the students. We are big. She’ll see. We’ll really surprise her. People will be able to hear us through the entire building, and even outside probably. For this gig, we’re supposed to usher people into the show with our music, but people tend not to walk past us. People are stopped in their tracks by us. I find it interesting that someone’s with Thoth’s age and experience is asked if he’s any good. It’s better to be underrated than overrated.

Tomorrow is our last day at the pensao. We’re moving to our new place on Monday.

Another Amazing Day Hurray!

Playing in the hallway.

Playing in the hallway again!

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We played up front again today! It was much busier. More people out. Thoth was nervous we’d bother some other busker, but I wasn’t concerned. “He’ll move.” I said, which he did. It’s cute that Thoth is so immensely concerned about everyone around him. It’s amazing he can sing the way he does. He’s so fucking loud. It’s like he’s singing “I don’t give a fuck! I don’t give a fuck!” and he doesn’t. 🙂 Like a said, that man is the master of not giving a fuck. We had another great day. I can’t really explain how amazing it is to hear my voice again. It’s so fucking amazing. Finally my high voice is working like it effortlessly does. I get so freaked out when my high voice isn’t working when I’m sick. It’s so much a part of who I am.

I didn’t care if people were listening to us I was enjoying myself so much. As the day went on, our crowds got bigger and bigger, and no one bothered us. Hurray! I was so freaking happy. Playing in the front is different than playing in the back. It’s more about the sound than the performance. The hallway up front is so resonant, but we have more space to dance in the back. In the front we’re pressed against a wall. Sometimes I like not having to worry about performing. Well, by any other standard we are still performing, but for me not as much as we do in the back. I don’t feel like I have to move around as much because the sound is so beautiful. It’s funny how anyone watching us doesn’t experience the same thing I experience when I’m performing. Wait, does that make sense?

 Look at all the people!

Look at all the people!

A man who bought a CD said, “I see a future of opera in you.” He was a once trained opera singer, so he was very knowledgeable about the subject. “I want to see you guys get discovered!” his wife said. I wonder what people mean when they say that. I don’t really know if they know what they mean. “Not to insult what you’re doing now.” she continued. “I want to see you performing in Las Vegas.” Hmm. I don’t know if I would like that. Would I make more money? Most definitely. Would I be overall happier and without a care in the world? I don’t know really. Fame, success, whatever you call it is a double edged sword. Sure, I’m not happy all the time now, but I’m only responsible to myself and my husband. I have no responsibilities other than that. There is no pressure on me from my millions of fans to make a number 1 album and have an exhausting tour schedule. I do what I want. You could say we do things the old fashioned way, eye to eye. We give freely and people give back freely. No one is forced to give us anything. We’re free in every way.  Not that I’m against us being more successful. We’re more successful than we were 5 years ago, but I no longer believe in overnight success.

So Much Better Today

Tuesday April 14th 2015

I’m feeling much better today!

When I got up, the first thing I did was see all the supportive messages on my blog and Facebook, which helped cheer me up. Thank you everyone for caring about me. Sometimes I feel so uncared for. I keep up this blog to help inspire me and thus inspire others. It’s when I’m sad and questioning myself that I really see how many people love what we do. Thank you to all.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

We got our final check for the opera commission in the mail AND Book A Street Artist (our new representatives) booked a gig for us in San Diego next Saturday! What a wonderful surprise! How is it I get so sad, then the very next day wonderful things happen?

Sis got on Skype and we helped check over her resume and find a monologue for an audition. I wanted to stay online with her, but I biked to the bank and listened to The Lion King, smiling and waving to everyone. I got some snacks for us and went home. I worked with sis on her monologues on Skype, did the laundry and watched a movie.

Our housemate said we can use his car tomorrow to visit the seamstress, but we want to play tomorrow as well. Maybe we’ll do something with friends. I still don’t know if my voice feels all better. I haven’t sung since Sunday. Thoth thinks I shouldn’t sing until Friday.

Our friend Scott from SF is excited to have us back in the Bay Area for a few weeks. He’s trying to set up an artists salon while we’re there (May 5th-18th) but he can’t find a reasonably priced space that’s large enough. If anyone knows of something, please drop me a line. Our friend Sarah is coming to see us do the opera and Scott knows of a rehearsal space we can use. He’s an awesome guy, who is trying so hard to keep art alive in San Francisco, We’re lucky to have such supportive people in our lives. Our work wouldn’t exists without them. I’ll leave you with what Scott wrote to me.

saw you are sads! big hugs
you guys bring so much magic and light into the world its bonkers!

Love to you all.

It was a Great Weekend!

Sunday March 22nd 2015

I took this picture with the GoPro.

I wore all white today. Someone mailed me a pretty lace thingy and I had never worn it before today. I’m a pretty pale person.

As we were biking to the park, the phone rang in my violin case. I pulled over and looked. It was Forrest. I called him back. He asked if we had already left and he wanted to pick us up. Isn’t that sweet? The cooler temperature made the bike ride easy. Thoth was taking it easy. Of course our spot in the park was chilly. I’m glad I wore layers!

Forrest arrived just as we were about to play. I was happy we started on time. It was another wonderful prayformance. I had a lot of fun. The opera is starting to get under my skin. All the endings feel much better. I’m starting to see how much people are enjoying the new music. I’m not spinning as often nor am I mirroring Thoth’s movements. It’s taken me forever to stop doing that! I don’t have to copy Thoth. It helps that we’re telling a clear story. I’m doing things with my body and voice to express the story. Mel and Carissa came in the middle of our set. They had beach chairs and sat down right in the front near Forrest and Tasha. I’m so amazed people come to see us in the park so much. It’s not like we force them to. They want to. People like what we do!!!!! Thoth is really funny during the “Transformation” scene. While he plays, he’s learning how to walk. He moves his legs all around and it makes me smile. I wish we had the camera so we could film it. Today near the end when we were playing our older pieces, Thoth did something that made me laugh so hard I could barely play! He’s so stupid and silly. He’s like a kid. It inspires me to be stupid, too. When we finished, we said goodbye to our friends and biked home. We stopped in the grocery store and I went shopping for dinner.

At home, we checked to see how the GoPro’s pictures looked. They’re ok. The lens is very big so I don’t have to hold it far away from myself. I don’t like the lack of a screen to see what I’m doing. I have to wait until I see them on my computer. We’d have to buy a screen. It seems we have to buy a bunch of extra things for it to work the way we want it to. It needs a skeleton case, an external microphone and a screen for me to be fully happy with it. It is light and easy to use, but I can’t see myself. That’s what it comes down to for me. Our old camera is awkward and we have to do a bunch of stuff before we can film, but I can see myself and it takes perfectly good film and video. I think I’m going to send it back and look for one that will suit our needs better, or just keep out old one if it’s fixable. I’m not willing to pay so much money for a camera I’m not %100 thrilled with. I wish I hadn’t dropped our old one.

Thoth made us a delicious orange salmon pasta for dinner. He hasn’t made me a nice home cooked meal in a while.

I’m fucking in love with my hair color by the way. I thought I had completely distorted it last week trying to get the neon colors out. Now It’s a multitude of light pastel colors. I look like a freakin’ unicorn from outer space.