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A Life of Art

Friday June 25th 2016

I acted for 4 hours when I got up, had a vegetarian lunch and watched some “best acting of all time” clips while getting ready to play. It was inspiring! I don’t understand how to act, but when I see good actors I know which ones are the best. It’s a particular look they have, the way they carry themselves and how they speak. My favorite actors are Daniel Day Lewis, Anthony Hopkins, Kevin Spacey, Sharlto Copley, Ralph Finnes, Jim Carrey, Robin Williams, Johnny Depp and Gary Oldman. There are others. All men of course, and all intense in their own ways. I love intensity.

I got all dressed up tonight, for some reason. I was inspired I guess. I’ve come to realize that dressing up isn’t for the audience, it’s for me. It helps me prayform better, feel more confident and have more fun. I like being outrageous and doing something with my look people don’t do.

Elisa and her boyfriend came to see us for the second time since we’ve been here. We knew it would be a great prayformance evening for us when we saw them. We love when fans come to see us! It makes us feel appreciated and loved! They stayed for the full two hour prayformance. They even dressed up. It was a fantastic night. When we finished, she gave me a new Babe she’d made just for me! OMGGGGG!!!!!!!!! So cute!!!! I feel so happy when people love our work. It makes me feel like a completely different person.

There were lots of gay men in the street. It’s Gay Pride this weekend. They loved my look, but┬á were quite drunk. ­čÖé We had dinner at the Italian place we used to go to, called Boteo, in Barrio Alto. It used to be called Mama Rosa. The chef remembered us and gave us free drinks and toasted with us. He was so handsome! He reminds me of our friend Michael C. from the Bay Area. The food is better than it’s ever been there. Highly recommended! I love when people treat us well, like celebrities. It was a fantastic end to our night.

I am so lucky to be living this life! I get to rest and do whatever I want in the house all day, have a delicious lunch, then get dressed up and go out to play for a couple hours. We have fans who come see us, then have a delicious dinner at a restaurant where the chef loves us! I’ve worked so hard and long to be able to experience happy times like these. There was a time when we were here back when we first arrived in 2010 and we weren’t doing well at all. I was terrified then, but look at us now! I have to tough out the hard times to be able to again enjoy the joyous times. There’s no reason for us to go anywhere else in the summer but Lisbon. People love us, the restaurants love us. We have a place to live a 10 minute walk away from our prayformance spot. We seem to get more an more famous every year we come here.

Imagine when it’s been 10 years of us coming to Lisbon or San Diego. We’re quite well known in those cities now, but imagine what it will be like then? Or 20 years! I didn’t think about that when we first started traveling. We’re getting famous, but we’re doing it the slower, more organic way. Each person who becomes a fan meets us and speaks to us face to face. Each person discovers us in a different way, and they don’t forget us. It does pay off to stick with your art. It does!!

It was a Great Weekend!

Sunday March 22nd 2015

I took this picture with the GoPro.

I wore all white today. Someone mailed me a pretty lace thingy and I had never worn it before today. I’m a pretty pale person.

As we were biking to the park, the phone rang in my violin case. I pulled over and looked. It was Forrest. I called him back. He asked if we had already left and he wanted to pick us up. Isn’t that sweet? The cooler temperature made the bike ride easy. Thoth was taking it easy. Of course our spot in the park was chilly. I’m glad I wore layers!

Forrest arrived just as we were about to play. I was happy we started on time. It was another wonderful prayformance. I had a lot of fun. The opera is starting to get under my skin. All the endings feel much better. I’m starting to see how much people are enjoying the new music. I’m not spinning as often nor am I mirroring Thoth’s movements. It’s taken me forever to stop doing that! I don’t have to copy Thoth. It helps that we’re telling a clear story. I’m doing things with my body and voice to express the story. Mel and Carissa came in the middle of our set. They had beach chairs and sat down right in the front near Forrest and Tasha. I’m so amazed people come to see us in the park so much. It’s not like we force them to. They want to. People like what we do!!!!! Thoth is really funny during the “Transformation” scene. While he plays, he’s learning how to walk. He moves his legs all around and it makes me smile. I wish we had the camera so we could film it. Today near the end when we were playing our older pieces, Thoth did something that made me laugh so hard I could barely play! He’s so stupid and silly. He’s like a kid. It inspires me to be stupid, too. When we finished, we said goodbye to our friends and biked home. We stopped in the grocery store and I went shopping for dinner.

At home, we checked to see how the GoPro’s pictures looked. They’re ok. The lens is very big so I don’t have to hold it far away from myself. I don’t like the lack of a screen to see what I’m doing. I have to wait until I see them on my computer. We’d have to buy a screen. It seems we have to buy a bunch of extra things for it to work the way we want it to. It needs a skeleton case, an external microphone and a screen for me to be fully happy with it. It is light and easy to use, but I can’t see myself. That’s what it comes down to for me. Our old camera is awkward and we have to do a bunch of stuff before we can film, but I can see myself and it takes perfectly good film and video. I think I’m going to send it back and look for one that will suit our needs better, or just keep out old one if it’s fixable. I’m not willing to pay so much money for a camera┬áI’m not %100 thrilled with. I wish I hadn’t dropped our old one.

Thoth made us a delicious orange salmon pasta for dinner. He hasn’t made me a nice home cooked meal in a while.

I’m fucking in love with my hair color by the way. I thought I had completely distorted it last week trying to get the neon colors out. Now It’s a multitude of light pastel colors. I look like a freakin’ unicorn from outer space.

Nice Day at Home

Tuesday December 23rd 2014

So today Thoth was at his mom’s most of the day. I continued looking into renting a car. It seems that I must have a credit card. It’s odd because I remember renting a car in Downtown Oakland two years ago with a debt card and it was quite painless. Last year when we went to the Oakland Airport to get our rental car with sis, they said we needed a credit card, so sis kindly drove us down to San Diego. I don’t know what we would have done if she wasn’t there. It’s actually hard not having her here. She was able to help us get around and would come to any shows we did. I wish she was closer. I’m going to miss her on Christmas. We always had a nice Christmas together. Thoth usually went with Nana to a friends house during the day, so sis and I would have sausage biscuits and go see a film, then Thoth would come home and make dinner for us. This year Thoth and I will spend the day together. It will be nice.

I called him and he got on Skype with me. We wrote back and forth while his mom talked at him about politics. That’s all she talks about. She didn’t know he was online with me. She doesn’t acknowledge my existence and is very racist towards me. She seems to hate me. I didn’t do anything to her. She’s called me a witch, white trash and a dybbuk in emails to Thoth. He recorded her saying something about “marrying the enemy.” She didn’t say my name, but she was talking about me. Unbelievable. I don’t understand why she’s so prejudice against me. She married a Jewish man at the height of racial discrimination and had 3 mixed race children. She walked with Martin Luther King for racial equality. Now she is exactly like the people she was fighting against! How is it ok for her to be racist against me and it’s not ok for people to be that way towards her? I don’t get it, and she doesn’t see it.

I got all dressed up and pranced around the room listening to “Quidam” in my spiked high heels. I want our opera to be staged with the grandness of Quidam. I can see such beautiful images in my head when I listen to the album. Quidam is quite a short album. Only 12 songs, and nothing is longer than 5 minutes. Interesting. Our last album had 15 songs I think. With “Heaven Scent”, I was embarrassed how I was playing and singing too much. No one else would notice it, but I feel I was overplaying because I was unsure of myself. I tend to play too much when I don’t know what I’m doing. In our new album, everything I play and sing feels fearless. I know more what I’m doing. Improvising is hard and it’s easy at the same time. I have to let myself go and not be afraid to not sing. Silence is part of the music. My violin improvisation skills have definitely improved.

Nana and I went to pick Bunny up at BART, then went to Trader Joe’s. It was very busy. He was upset from his visit to his mom’s house. “She ranted for 2 hours about racism, then I stopped her and said ‘What’s the point?’ and she said ‘I don’t know how you could marry that 20 year old white girl.'”┬áNana and I were both completely shocked. We went home and Nana and he talked while he cooked dinner. They made cranberry chocolate chip cookies for dessert. I got on Skype with sis.

Silly sissy.

Silly sissy.

Bunny was feeling better when I came downstairs. We had a lovely dinner and talked more about his mom. “She’s only distancing you from her, and everyone else.” I said. “He went upstairs to take a nap and I cleaned the dishes. I went upstairs and listened to our new album roughs while writing my blog. It’s growing on me. I really want it to be staged!

Yummy din din by Bunny.

Yummy din din by Bunny.