Wednesday October 19th 2016
Today I felt something really amazing. I felt beautiful, like the inside of my heart and soul was on the outside, visible for others to see. It was as if I knew we are destined to be famous and loved throughout the world and respected as great artists in history. I knew from deep within myself that the people of this time who see me will someday say, “I saw them back when they was only performing in the parks.” I know that Dan Rubin’s pictures of us will be famous too because they will have documented us before our fame. By fame I don’t mean paparazzi following us around and being in stupid tabloid newspapers, I mean famous as in being legendary people who create music, art and live a creative life that many, many people respect, admire and love. We are already legendary. People say that to us. We are recognized in every city we perform in by people who have seen our work and love it.
People are afraid to let their truth shine. I am a loved and respected artist living an incredible live of inspiration and creativity. That is my truth. I inspire everyone who sees me. I either inspire them or challenge them. Today I was so inspired I had a blast getting ready to prayform. We had such a great two days off I felt happy, refreshed and beautiful! It was 80 degrees outside so I only wore my new floral top, my new floral panties and my new baby pink sneakers. I felt like a little pixie. I don’t really feel “feminine” with the way I dress, especially when I dress skimpily. I feel like a sexless Puckish pixie fairy alien angel creature.
Getting to the park took longer than usual. People stared at me the whole way to the park. A family of women got on the train after us. The younger daughter saw me first and told her mom to look behind her. She did and then turned all the way around to stare at me. No one said anything. There I was, a little 28 year old girl walking around New York City in floral panties and painted hair. I felt very bold. Who walks around in their panties? The outfits I wear are as outrageous as anyone I’ve seen. I’m the person I want the world to be. Creative, open and free, which it is anything but!
We got to the park just in time and had a great prayformance for our first. We went crazy for our first four songs and the crowds were very responsive and supportive. A group of people had been waiting for us to begin and were the biggest applauders. Who knows how they knew us. Probably had seen us play at the Angel Tunnel before. By the end of playing Thoth was really tired. Dan and I did a photo shoot and we took the subway with him, got dinner and settled down for the evening.
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Thursday September 15th 2016
Today I got really done up again. I don’t know why. Yesterday was so hard, even though I was all dressed up. I did myself up again anyway. Why not? I try to hope for the best and always try to do my best. It was cooler today. No one said anything to me on the train, unlike yesterday.
I’m really enjoying showing off my legs these days, my thighs especially. I’ve never done that before. It’s very freeing and makes me feel empowered, confident and sexy. I don’t usually feel sexy or see myself as sexy.
We were “late” again to the tunnel. The trains were running weird again. Abraham and his brother and cousin were there when we got there, thankfully. The rigs for yesterdays film shoot were still up. Damn! We assumed it would be another noisy, chaotic day, but it wasn’t. Dan Rubin came to photograph.
It was a slow-as-molasses kind of prayformance. Not in terms of our playing, we had fun singing, but in terms of the audiences response. It was quiet. Crowds? Yes. Clapping and appreciation? Not so much. For basically the entire two hours we played. It was only at the last song we had a rush for CDs. Yay! I think the overarching themes for Tribal Baroque is “Always be yourself” and “Never give up.”
Dan and I took some shots of my makeup outside the tunnel.
We were stopped by some locals we always pass in Strawberry Fields. They talked to us and asked us questions. Jaque talked to Thoth and Pauline talked to me. Jaque asked Thoth how we handle being stared at. Pauline asked me all about our lifestyle. It was wonderful. We went to an art gallery opening at John Jay College of Criminal Justice with Dan. A woman we passed on the way looked at me in amazement. “You blew my mind.” she said. An Asian girl did a beautiful dance with fabric. I was very moved by her performance. Thalia, the art curator who we met at Sean’s party last week, asked if we’d like to play. I didn’t have time to put my bells on. We did an improv and interacted with the artwork.
Afterwards Thalia said, “Have dinner on me.” That was unexpected. Some cool people talked to us and asked questions. They had no idea who we were or how we knew about the show.
We had dinner with Dan at the dinner around the corner. Eating when you’re hungry is an amazing experience.
Friday June 25th 2016
I acted for 4 hours when I got up, had a vegetarian lunch and watched some “best acting of all time” clips while getting ready to play. It was inspiring! I don’t understand how to act, but when I see good actors I know which ones are the best. It’s a particular look they have, the way they carry themselves and how they speak. My favorite actors are Daniel Day Lewis, Anthony Hopkins, Kevin Spacey, Sharlto Copley, Ralph Finnes, Jim Carrey, Robin Williams, Johnny Depp and Gary Oldman. There are others. All men of course, and all intense in their own ways. I love intensity.
I got all dressed up tonight, for some reason. I was inspired I guess. I’ve come to realize that dressing up isn’t for the audience, it’s for me. It helps me prayform better, feel more confident and have more fun. I like being outrageous and doing something with my look people don’t do.
Elisa and her boyfriend came to see us for the second time since we’ve been here. We knew it would be a great prayformance evening for us when we saw them. We love when fans come to see us! It makes us feel appreciated and loved! They stayed for the full two hour prayformance. They even dressed up. It was a fantastic night. When we finished, she gave me a new Babe she’d made just for me! OMGGGGG!!!!!!!!! So cute!!!! I feel so happy when people love our work. It makes me feel like a completely different person.
There were lots of gay men in the street. It’s Gay Pride this weekend. They loved my look, but were quite drunk. 🙂 We had dinner at the Italian place we used to go to, called Boteo, in Barrio Alto. It used to be called Mama Rosa. The chef remembered us and gave us free drinks and toasted with us. He was so handsome! He reminds me of our friend Michael C. from the Bay Area. The food is better than it’s ever been there. Highly recommended! I love when people treat us well, like celebrities. It was a fantastic end to our night.
I am so lucky to be living this life! I get to rest and do whatever I want in the house all day, have a delicious lunch, then get dressed up and go out to play for a couple hours. We have fans who come see us, then have a delicious dinner at a restaurant where the chef loves us! I’ve worked so hard and long to be able to experience happy times like these. There was a time when we were here back when we first arrived in 2010 and we weren’t doing well at all. I was terrified then, but look at us now! I have to tough out the hard times to be able to again enjoy the joyous times. There’s no reason for us to go anywhere else in the summer but Lisbon. People love us, the restaurants love us. We have a place to live a 10 minute walk away from our prayformance spot. We seem to get more an more famous every year we come here.
Imagine when it’s been 10 years of us coming to Lisbon or San Diego. We’re quite well known in those cities now, but imagine what it will be like then? Or 20 years! I didn’t think about that when we first started traveling. We’re getting famous, but we’re doing it the slower, more organic way. Each person who becomes a fan meets us and speaks to us face to face. Each person discovers us in a different way, and they don’t forget us. It does pay off to stick with your art. It does!!
Saturday October 31st 2015
There were lots of kids running around in little costumes as we walked to the subway. This is the one day of the year it’s ok for the general public to dress up and be what they want to be. We are our wonderfully outrageous selves every day. 🙂
Everyone wears a costumes, but I prefer being on the flamboyant side of the spectrum. It’s more fun that way I think.
A woman recognized us on the subway. “I saw your show in Martha’s Vineayrd!” she said. Amazing. It’s the first day in 7 years that Halloween fell on a Saturday. That meant there were lots of people out in costume. The last time that happened was back in 2009 when I first started prayforming with Thoth. SEVEN YEARS. Can you believe it?! I’ve grown and changed so much!!
People took pictures of me while we waited in the Angel Tunnel to play. “Your costume is magnificent.” Thank you. It was quiet today, finally! Dan Rubin’s brother Josh came and watched our entire opera. A young man sat in the corner against a pillar and watched our entire prayformance. We had sold out of all but 2 CDs, which he bought just as we were finishing. His name was Jandre, from South Africa. “I came here just to see you. I saw you last Fall. It was life changing.” he said. He even reads my blog. It means so much to us when people come to see us and stay and listen. We finished off the day on a high note!
What a Happy Halloween!!!