4.3.2010
“Death” does not necessarily mean the end of a life, it is another chance, a new perspective, and growth. Traveling and playing with Thoth has given me knowledge and insight I could not have learned in school. This trip has helped me grow up. My sister will be surprised when she sees me because I am not the person I was last year when she was with me in New York. Traveling gives you a different perspective, compassion for others, patience, faith, and pride for getting through the hard times. I feel stronger for surviving this.
We’re back in Barcelona. This trip has been hard! I had a bad dream this morning. I had to leave Thoth and go home. When I got to my house, no one was there and I was crying but I couldn’t make sound. I heard someone come in the house and I went to see who it was, I though I saw my sister but I wasn’t sure. I tried to call for her but I couldn’t speak. When I woke up, I started crying and Thoth reached for me to pet me and held me. He has been very sweet to me. He got plastered after having beer for the first time in 1 1/2 months and was fooling around with me. I love when he’s so silly. Being at Vicente’s house is comforting but I don’t know what we’re doing next. We could go back to New York, but we’d have nowhere to live and we couldn’t make enough money for both of us to survive on prayformance. We’d need help from others. Thoth said we could just go to the tunnel and see what happens. I miss smoothies and green salads. When we made cup cakes last night, we found a device that can crush fruit so I’m going to get some fruit at the Mercat today.