Sunday June 28th 2015
Thank you everyone who wrote to me about continuing to blog! I was so touched how much people enjoy the simple, straightforward way I write about my daily life. I’m really just doing it for myself, so it means a lot to know that other people enjoy it. I’m wondering though, are people able to comment? Thoth was making things more private when I was nervous, but he says it’s back to normal. I miss getting comments. Is everything OK?
It was so hot again today. We both become like wet noodles! Ugh. It’s almost unbearable. I’m grateful we have a fan. We’ll definitely be prepared for a few weeks of hot weather once we get to New York! At least it cools down at night here.
It was another really lovely prayformance. A man came up to us and said someone told him we were really good. “It couldn’t have been anyone other than you.” he said. He said he’d come back when we started, and he did. We played the opera tonight. I’m finally finding my melodies and I’m not overplaying. When I’m not comfortable with music, I overplay. Tonight I was more musical and used more dynamics. I’m so excited to see what happens when we play it at Martha’s Vineyard. I’m sure everyone’s going to love it.
We went to SeaMe for dinner. I love their sushi. It’s my favorite in Lisbon. The waitress was really nice to us. “Your make up is different today. More pink.” she said. They didn’t have Thoth’s favorite dish, but he got something else he really liked. I was so proud of us. We’re doing really well. We’re going to the beach tomorrow for dinner!
Saturday June 27th 2015
Thoth and I are so reclusive in the daytime. It was so hot today and we were very sluggish until time to get ready. The heat breaks around 5 o’clock, when I start doing my makeup.
I watched Johnny Depp clips while painting my face. I think he would LOVE what we do, don’t you think? Doing my makeup these days is such a creative journey. I love it.
A new woman was working the Fruit Bar. We helped her put things away and she was grateful. The surefire way to get on people’s good side is to help them. You help them, and they’ll help you. “Do you need this space?” she asked. “We play here.” I told her. The people who live above the space stopped by on their walk with Kiwi. The husband was impressed how much time and effort we put into our work. I like when people see that.
It was another really great prayformance! We’re playing the opera every other day and it’s working nicely. Today we played the old set. It’s good to give each set a break. Imagine what it’ll be like when we have 3, 4, 5 sets. That’ll be fun. A different set every day! I’m looking forward to playing the opera in the Angel Tunnel this Fall.
It was really busy when we finished. We walked down the street to have dinner. I was so tired, but really happy and content. We had a nice dinner on the patio. When we got home, someone had wrote to me asking to stay in the loop if I privatized my blog. I think I’m leaning towards keeping things as is. People write blogs all the time, I just need to be a bit more careful.
Friday June 26th 2015
I’m scared to blog.
I’ve been thinking of making my blog private. If I only allowed friends to read it, that would get rid of all the drama and stress attached to it. I know a lot of successful people write blogs and keep them open for anyone to read, but I’m not sure if that’s my thing. My blog is a journal, but it’s public and therefore anyone can see it, and not everyone is going to get it. I like writing and sharing my daily experiences. No one is censoring me. No one reads before I post. I make sure to never write where I’m living, but that’s it. I write when I’m angry, when I’m horny, when I’m depressed. I write about my hopes and dreams for my life. I write about my struggles and frustrations. If I made my blog private it would really change the dynamics of it. Just the same as anyone can come upon us in public prayformance, anyone can come upon this blog and say anything they want. I don’t have to pay attention to them, but sometimes it still effects me. I would miss getting comments from people who see us perform in public. but I wouldn’t miss the nasty, insensitive, or harassing comments from strangers I get sometimes. I want to be open, but I also want to protect myself. I’ve learned that people can be greedy, uncaring and downright predatory when they choose to. I’ve learned that those kinds of people can find me on the internet and harass me to get something they think I owe them. It’s spooked me, but I’m not doing anything wrong. I started writing in the first place to share with our friends and fans, not for ill intentioned strangers to harass me. I should be able to write whatever I want without fear, but the internet can be a dangerous place. Maybe I just need to take more care with what I post in the future.
I had a lot of fun doing my makeup. Sitting at the mirror for a few hours every day painting my face while listening to music is relaxing. The design on my forehead was really fun to create.
A couple from New Zealand was having a snack at the Fruit Bar when we arrived. Thoth helped the woman who works there translate for her. When they finished eating, the husband helped up pack up the chairs and bring them to the woman who runs the Fruit Bar. They went to find a restroom, then came and sat down to watch our prayformance. Another couple sat down next to them and watched us for a while, too. It was wonderful. The New Zealand couple left exactly when the opera was finished, and they don’t know our music. It was the best prayformance in a week or so. Audiences the entire 2 hours. We went to the Indian place again for dinner. 🙂
Thursday June 25th 2015
We had our windows replaced today, so we had to work in the living room. I was very upset with my mother about something I found out, so I got on Skype with my sister and talked to her about it. My mom got on Skype as I was about to start working on my makeup. I turned on her video and we talked while I did makeup. She listened to me and finally admitted she has a problem. I had been very angry at her for a few days, so talking face to face really helped. She’s getting help, finally. It’s been too long. For those who know me, they know what I’m talking about. It made me feel so much better. It cleared me. I want my mom to get better. I love her. My makeup even turned out well. We were expecting something similar to last night in regards to audiences, and we were right. Even though we played the old set where we dance around more, audiences are similar on weeknights. 10pm is when people start gathering in droves and sitting to watch us. A guard we didn’t recognize came past at 10:15. We assumed he’d be closing the gates to the space at 10:30 as usual. When he came back, we asked and he gruffly said, “10 minutes.” We played one more song and packed up. The guard didn’t come back. The girl who came by last night, Annah, came again to see the end of our show, but we were finished. She sat with us and we went across the street to get lemonade slushies. Thoth got her ice cream, as they didn’t accept cards. She walked with us to our favorite Indian place for dinner and treated us to some appetizers. What a nice connection!
I’m so proud of what we’ve done. We’ve created a very unique situation for ourselves. It is a life I am proud to be living. Everything we have exists because of our dedication to our work.