Thursday December 25th 2014
So today I was really excited about staging our Esh and Ee-ay opera. Thoth and I talked about it all morning. He’s excited about it, too. We talked about doing a theatre performance years ago, but we didn’t have any music or storyline. Now we do. “Babe said we should do it as soon as possible.” Thoth said. “Why?” I asked. “Because it’s fresh in our minds.” he said. “I don’t even know where to start!” I said. I met a girl named Lula Applebruise at Whobilation who would be a perfect Ee-ay character. That got me very excited. We started exchanging ideas. I’d love to do it in a unusual way, since our work is in and of itself unusual. Thoth played in a show many years ago with Michael, his drummer. Thoth stood up on a pedestal and Michael came out and drummed him into motion, then they brought the audience into the theatre, played really fast, finished and ran offstage, then the show began. I want our show to have audience interaction and always surprise people, like it does in public. I would love to bring the show out in public to promote it. We’d have 4 musicians (Thoth, me, Michael and Rhan) 4 actor/performers to play the characters, and a small ensemble cast. We’d need a lighting designer, a set designer, a sound designer and someone to film the show with good equipment. We’d have to rent a theatre space. I even thought of doing it in a church. Theaters usually don’t have good acoustics. I think we should do it in the Bay Area.
I found Lula’s blog and looked at her pictures. Wow.
She has a very similar style to mine. I love her long pink hair. That’s how I want my hair to be someday. Her blog inspired me. I want my blog to be more fantastical and inspiring. I found another blog that was very inspiring called Macy Marie. She is friends with Lula.
I wrote to Lula to see if she would send me the picture she took of us at Whobilation. She actually posted on Facebook and said some nice things about me. It made my day. 🙂
“The Stars were aligned for me To meet my ghosty pink twin soul sister, Lila Angelique at Whobiliation. You were the highlight of the evening and I could just spookily stare at you forever!”
I have a desire for friends who are similar to me. I know there are other people out there who like pink, dressing up and being creative as much as I do. I wrote back to see if she would be interested in being in our opera. She is. Isn’t she adorable? She’s an aerialist and contortionist, she’s my height and she has pink hair. My Ee-ay character is a small fairy with long pink hair. How much more perfect could it be? I hope we can make it happen!
I randomly saw some pictures of my friend James Swanton by Chrystal Ding on Facebook. In-fucking-credible. He looks positively ghoulish!
How is it this man can be so… well just LOOK at him! So pensive and dark and intense and… He’s only 23! 3 YEARS YONGER THAN ME! I find him quite beautiful. It made me start fantasizing about flying to London for a few days just to see him in Sykes and Nancy. That would be nuts, wouldn’t it? There’s just something so utterly mesmerizing about him. The long, bony frame, the dark eyes, the high cheekbones, the broad shoulders, and he’s so tall! It makes me want to draw him again. And his voice! Don’t get me started. I wish I had recorded him speaking in “In the Penal Colony.” It’s like he was born to play all those wonderfully grotesque characters he loves playing. It makes me want to write a play for him about Phantom. I’ve always wanted to do it. I just know he’s destined for an incredible career. Why is it I know this person, yet he is so impossibly far away from me? I think I will always be watching his career blossom from afar. I wish I could go to every performance he’s ever done. Whenever he’s in a show, I talk about flying to the UK to see him. I must be out of my mind. But JUST LOOK AT HIM! Mesmerizing. I know this isn’t how he is in real life, but this is all I see of him, the actor side. I don’t see him at home with his family or friends. I only see and hear him in character. I know he’s not a morose person. He’s probably quite funny, but this is all I know of him. It’s like my obsession with Michael Crawford in the past. I knew Michael wasn’t a dark, intense figure running around with a mask on (he played the original Phantom fyi) but for the longest time I couldn’t see him any other way. Now I know through interviews and the like he is the most wonderfully funny and slightly awkward person. Isn’t that odd how performers are on stage vs. in private? I for example am not this fantastically graceful, angelic creature at home. I’m just me. I change in public. In performance I am as magical as can be. Most people only know me in that way. Others are surprised to discover just how normal I really am. Well, I’m not necessarily THAT normal. I am an artist. It’s almost like performance gives performers the permission to be our most intense, magical selves. At times I wish I was more like James’ characters, but I’m a girl. He is so lucky to be a man and have the perfect voice and body for these grotesque characters. I think I am destined to be a pink haired fairy lady, but I will always love the grotesque.