Monthly Archives: September 2014

Oyster Bar

Monday September 29th 2014

We cuddled together when I woke up. I had a good sleep. We got dressed and went to the Oyster Bar to get lobster. We were disappointed to find they didn’t have chilled lobster, so I got a caesar salad with shrimp and crab meat. It wasn’t very good so I set it back and got a lobster cocktail instead. Much better. Thoth got a steamed lobster and was very happy with his meal. The couple next to us didn’t talk to each other the entire meal. When we finished, we walked towards 35th Street and stopped in an H&M where I bought a few floral tops and a new dress. I went in the library to use the bathroom and we walked to The Feather Place. They only sold the kind of feathers I wanted in bulk, but the owner gave me two baby pink ones for free! I was very happy. I stuck them in my top knot and kissed Thoth goodbye. He went home and I walked towards 7th Avenue. I passed a place called B&Q Trim and went inside. They had tons of feathers, rhinestones, trims and fake flowers. I bought some flowers to pin to my bra and went home on the train. It was starting to rain. At home, I tried on my new clothes and relaxed until we got hungry again. I went out and got Thoth some spare ribs at the Chinese take out place and got myself a grilled cheese at the bodega. A man was gesturing to his girlfriend in the store and accidentally hit me in the stomach. It hurt. I told Thoth when I got home. It makes him sad for me. He’s very protective. I ate and chilled out until bedtime.

Shot by Paparazzi

Sunday September 28th 2014

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

I got up and did my makeup. I braided some of my hair and wrapped it around like a headband. I really like white face. Have I said that before? I’ve learned over the years what colors and looks suit me best. I am my own canvas. I pinned up my pink tulle skirt. I need a new costume! We were a tad late leaving for the park, but got to the tunnel at the same time we usually do. We sat in the wings and waited to set up. A family with a 6 month old puppy came and talked to us. They’re big fans. The daughter is 10 and very smart. She let me hold their puppy. The family remembered us from last year and said they’d be back on Wednesday to see us perform. Sal, the director of the film, came to see us and we talked about the film some more. When the Boyds finished, Miriam came to sing. When she saw me, she ran to hug me and picked me up! It was so sweet! We set up in the front while she sang in the back. I only had one string of bells. ūüôĀ I wore my lamb hoofs on the other ankle, but they didn’t make much sound. Dan came to photograph us. We went to the corner and took some lounging pictures while waiting to start. When Miriam finished, I hugged her goodbye and we began prayformance.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Our crowds were strange today. Big, but strange. There were a lot of paparazzi. A group, perhaps a family, of Asians snapped pictures of us non stop for the first 5 songs. This happens all the time, but today was different. I felt like I was being shot. They all stood directly in front of our case so no one could see our sign. One man was particularly intrusive¬†and got his camera really close to my face and came into our space to get shots. The photographer’s little son plopped himself in front of our case twice until I had to ask him nicely to move. I know it’s a public space and people can do what they want, but I wish people would be a little more conscious. These people just took picture after picture. I felt robbed. They even blocked other people from watching us. I like¬†Dan’s style of photographing. He knows what we’re going to do, so he never gets in the way. He’s gentle and humble, and he always sends us beautiful¬†pictures. It’s give and take, not just take. I encourage people¬†to watch us with their¬†eyes, not their¬†cameras and smartphones. Later, the break dancers came downstairs. They weren’t super loud, but it was right in the middle of “Sea Expressions,” one of our sweet pieces. We had a big crowd and most went over to watch them. I feel betrayed when that happens. If some guy started whistling and drawing attention to himself during a concert of ours, they would be thrown out, but in public, everyone goes to watch them. Odd, huh? We were able to do the rest of our set when they stopped playing the boom box, so it was ok.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

We were both exhausted when we finished. The performing couple who came to see us perform yesterday came back. I thanked Adam for his letter. He asked us straight out, “Do you collaborate?” I was taken aback. He wants us to play Irish music with him. I didn’t know how to say “no” nicely. “It’s a pretty busy year.” Thoth said. “We’re usually pretty stubborn and do our own thing.” I said. Dan sat with us while we packed up. “Thank you for spending time with us Dan. We love having you with us.” I said. “Yes, thank you Dan.” Thoth said. We walked to the subway together and said goodbye.

The subway platform was slowly filling with smoke. It got so bad we decided to leave and look for another entrance. We got to another station, but there were no downtown trains, so we walked to yet another station and finally went home. We were both horribly tired when we got home, but we had to go out again to have dinner with Katharine and her husband. We took showers and got dressed again and walked to the train. We finally arrived at Kathrine’s apartment and had dinner. We were so tired once we ate, we talked for a little and went home again. Thoth was still hungry so he got a sandwich at the deli and we went back to our apartment. Thoth passed out in bed and I wrote my blog.

I can’t wait to make the movie and rehearse for our opera. I think it’s time we had a theatre with focused audiences and a quiet, resonant space to perform our work. It will be a luxury to be paid to film the movie and it will be a luxury be paid to rehearse for our opera. That’s why I’m not so upset these days when we have a hard day. We have other things besides public performance now. I love performing in public, but performing indoors is pretty amazing, too. It’s a blessing we can do this work together.

Better Day then We Expected!

Saturday September 27th 2014

Today's look.

Today’s look.

I was really hungry when I woke up. (We usually don’t eat before prayformance.) I had to do my makeup twice because I messed up the first time. I hate when that happens. I did something easy, and put my hair up with a feather. I really liked how it looked. My hair is so fluffy and soft and long(ish). I think baby pink suits me best of any hair color. I used some of the flowery buttons a fan named Susan gave me. Thank you Susan! I love getting new buttons! I brought my iPod on the subway and listened to Cirque Du Soleil’s “La Nouba.” I love listening to music in public. It takes me into another world. I don’t do it as much as I used to. I¬†was sure it was going to be a chaotic, noisy day in the park. At first, it seemed some break dancers were downstairs performing, but they left after a little bit. They didn’t even play a boom box. A performance couple and their little girl came specifically to see us. The wife brought us blueberry chia. I ate mine right away. I was hungry! They sat next to us in the wings and ate lunch while waiting. Katharine, the violist who plays with the Boyds, came over and said hello. We’re going to her place in Brooklyn tomorrow night for dinner. She really likes what we do.

Miriam, the opera singer, was a tad late to the tunnel, but she arrived soon enough. We set up. I was sure the big, noisy concert on the Great Lawn would start soon, but it didn’t. When Miriam finished, she came over and chatted with us before leaving. “Have a good performance.” she said. We got a nice amount of quiet before the concert¬†started. The Great Lawn was miles away, but we could hear it like it was right above us! The subwoofer hurt my ears it was so loud. Disgusting! Imagine what the people who were there were feeling! What gives them the right to blast their music so loud and hurt people? People can hear our voices from far away, but it doesn’t hurt them. We decided to pack up because we have one more day of singing tomorrow. We began walking¬†out of the park. A group of break dancers walked by us and all reached out to shake Thoth’s hand. They all knew him and he knew them. “This is my wife.” Thoth would say. They shook my hand, too.

Grateful.

Grateful.

On the way to the subway, I needed¬†to take my bells off. I sat down next to a drain. When I untied the second set of bells, it immediately slipped down into the drain. “Oh no!” I said. “Now I don’t have bells. Shit!” “When we get home, you have to order some new ones¬†immediately.” Thoth said. “It’ll take days for them to get here.” I said. We walked to the subway. I walked ahead, feeling sad. “I love my girl. I love her. It’s ok.” Thoth said comforting me. “I feel stupid. I hate loosing things.” I said. We took the train near our apartment and went to our favorite restaurant on the block. We sat in the back. It was happy hour so we got margaritas. (Mine was non-alcoholic.) I felt better. We were both very happy and grateful the day worked out much better then we expected. Things are going so well. When we got home, I immediately ordered new bells with expedited shipping. Hopefully they’ll get here before we go out to prayform on Wednesday! Thoth napped beside me while I worked on my computer. Adam, part of the performance couple who came to see us today, wrote to us.

Hi Thoth and Lila, Adam here, the male half of Celtic for Hire. Today’s prayformance was incredible. Truly incredible. The two of you pour all of your passions, your strengths, your hearts into every movement, every note, and every subtle little detail and it really comes through to the audience. What struck me the most was the sheer level of technical ability that both of you have. Your mastery of your instruments, rhythm, and kinetic expression absolutely blew me away. I’ve been all over the place, seen all manner of performance, but never have I been so thunderstruck. You’re inspirational. I’ve been struggling recently with finding my way, facing a challenge from my wife to find what it is that makes me happy, and seeing the two of you out there today forced me to consider that music might very well be it. Your passion was both genuine and infectious, and I loved every moment of experiencing it. I only wish Alaria hadn’t melted down on us so we could’ve stayed for the whole prayformance. There will be others, in the future, I’m sure, and I’m excitedly looking forward. Thank you both for doing what you do. Thank you for putting your energy and your music and your movement and life out there for the world to absorb. Thank you for every lifegiving moment.

Flourishing Creativity

Thursday September 25th 2014

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

I was dead asleep when Thoth woke me up. I hopped up and started doing my makeup. I was inspired to try something a little different again. I tied my hair up and stuck the feathers in and wrapped tulle around it. I painted some random wisps and glued buttons and jewels around my face and wore all my new necklaces and bracelets. It was a bit breezy when we got to the Angel Tunnel. I was underdressed. We waited in the wings and read. John Vincent came and said hello. “The break dancers came down for two shows earlier, but they left ’cause they couldn’t gather a crowd.” he said. “Were they quiet?” I asked. “No. They turned it up whenever we turned ours up. It’s good they left.” John said. Miriam came and said hello before starting to sing. No one came to the park yesterday to play. We set up and Dan came to photograph us. I’m glad he did. “You’re all dolled up.” he said. When Miriam finished, we slowly went to stretch and start prayformance. It was another lovely day. There was a rehearsal going on for a big concert tomorrow on the Great Lawn. We could hear it as if it was upstairs. It didn’t bother us while we prayformed. I’ve notice we stay at a distance from each other when we perform. I suggested we try touching each other and intertwining at points. Thoth is nervous I’m not yet conscious enough with my violin and bow. While we played during “Pentagram,” we he tried to kiss me! It was so cute! We’ll probably do it again. A man said I was channeling angelic frequencies near the end of our set. That’s sweet.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

Photo by Dan Rubin.

When we finished, Dan and I went out of the tunnel to take some pictures. The other opera singer, Marcela, had been waiting to play, so we turned the space over to her. We walked with Dan to the subway and said goodbye. He took pictures of us across the subway platform. The train was crowded. We got food at the health food store and went home. I was completely drained energetically. I took off my costume, stuffed my face with food and got in the shower. Michael, our drummer friend from the Bay Area, called. I called him back and we talked for almost an hour. I told him about how I’m dealing better with negative people. I was so sad and angry last year. I’ve learned I don’t have to let negative people or situations affect me. I told him I am so grateful things are going well, because I know how bad things can get. I no longer feel entitled to money or compliments, I am grateful for them. I no longer judge or feel hatred towards others, I let things go easier. I’ve learned I can control myself and myself only. I want to be a loving and good person, to smile at everyone. I want to be an angel for others. I told him I know now that if I do good work, I will be taken care of. I trust that now. He was proud of me. Michael is so easy to talk to. He gets my thoughts flowing I get a sense that he really respects us and admires what we’re doing. He used to perform with Thoth in his band back in the ’80’s. We have a special connection. I’m excited to make the new album with him in December. He’s a caring soul.

Rainy Day Off

Thursday September 25th 2014

We decided to take today off. We thought it would rain heavily, but it ended up just being cold and a little drizzly. It didn’t matter. We’re blessed we can take a day off. We went to our favorite diner for breakfast/lunch, then did some shopping. Thoth bought himself a new tape recorder and I bought myself some bangle bracelets and a new necklace. I love jewelry! We went home and I watched movies and relaxed. Thoth has finally finished his 3D pink flying violin. He made it for me. I’m so proud of him. He works so hard. I talked to my sister on Skype. I tried to motivate her to do what she loves, but I can’t make her. She has to want to do it herself. She said she’s afraid of failure. I know from experience one has to fail many times in order to be successful, especially if one wants to follow their own path. I want her to be happy. I went out to get a salad and Thoth went to get noodles. I watched another movie and wrote my blog. I’m excited to prayform tomorrow. I feel very blessed and prosperous.