Category Archives: Lila’Angelique’s Artwork

New Artwork

Thursday April 10th 2014

I woke up late, but I was up too late last night. I started looking into housing for our stay in Edinburg. I was just curious what the prices are. All it did was freak me out, though. It’s impossible to find housing when we’re not in the city. We always figure out housing once we’re there, in ways we could never know now. After wandering around Barcelona for 3 difficult days in 2009, we bumped in Thoth’s old friend Vicente. He let us stay with him for 2 months! That happens everywhere we go. Lisbon, Greece, Porto, Amsterdam, Marrakech, San Diego.… Miracles always happen when we jump off the cliff. We just have to close our eyes and trust that we will land safely somehow. We actually haven’t been to a new city in a few years now. Thoth says we should treat ourselves to a hotel stay for the first week as our honeymoon. That would be nice, but I don’t want to spend a month’s worth of rent for 7 days in a hotel. We always spend the most money the first week in a new city. I got so upset I went to Thoth’s recliner and lay in his arms. We talked and it made me feel better. “Don’t do something that makes you upset when you’re in a bad mood.” he said.

We got dressed and went grocery shopping. They had fresh chicken tenders. I wanted one for a moment, then decided not to. It tastes good when I’m eating it, but I feel bad afterwards. Thoth was surprised I didn’t want one. “I guess I’ve brainwashed you!” he said jokingly. “You’ve washed my brain of all the bad behavior!” I said. I made lunch for myself, but it was tasteless. I felt overwhelmed. I lay down on the couch and Thoth lay down with me. He doesn’t like when I’m sad. “Do something that makes you happy.” he said. I finally started painting at 3 o’clock.

I worked on the top painting yesterday, but I wasn’t liking it so I added more flower paper and paint. My sister likes how I cut out the models and glue them onto a painted background. “It’s unique.” she said. For the second painting, I gave it a very simple wash for a background. The first one looked too busy. I want the focus to be on the model, not the background. The only way to learn is to make mistakes. I like the colors I used for the second one. It’s simple. I’d love to make paintings with the detail of Gustav Klimt’s work. I’m inspired by his art. I would like to be a master painter, singer, dancer, violinist, makeup artist and clothing designer. I don’t think that’s possible, but that’s my vision. It works well for me to follow my own self discipline. Thoth helps me when I need him. It’s almost like I’m still in school, but this is the school of life.

I found my favorite version of Jesus Christ Superstar. That made me happy.

Being Productive

Wednesday April 9th 2014

I thought I would sleep in late, but I got up at 9:30! I was dreading seeing my fucked up drawing, so I didn’t look at it for a while. Instead, I wrote yesterday’s blog, posted it and uploaded the weekend’s video blogs onto Youtube. I finally got to my drawing… and fixed her eyes!!!! Yay! I had to paint them over with white first. I wish I could draw one amazing drawing every day! Why does it have to take so freaking long?? I spent the rest of the day painting a background for her.

We hadn’t planned on going out to play because we thought it would be 90 degrees. We were wrong, it was in the mid 70’s. We discussed for a moment the idea of going out, but let it go. We weren’t planning to and there won’t be anyone there.

Jim sent me Anastasia Hunter’s email address. She runs the Steampunk Convention we performed at last year and wanted to bring us back. A promoter friend was supposed to be getting us the gig, but wasn’t getting back to us about it. Anastasia wrote back almost immediately.

Greetings, Thoth & Lila!

I regret that our convention has already spent all of our entertainment budget bringing our Musical Guest of Honor, Professor Elemental, from the United Kingdom to perform at Gaslight 4. Please forgive me for not contacting you as I must have forgotten asking you about performing this year.

I hope that you are able to make other arrangements and look forward to hearing you play in Balboa Park in the near future.

Most sincerely,

Anastasia Hunter

It made me feel very sad. Our friend made it seem like it was a done deal. It’s hard not to take things personally. If I had known earlier that our friend wasn’t promoting us, I would have contacted Anastasia directly.

My sister got on Skype. She got really sad because she was missing Jim and he responded flippantly. She started crying and needed to talk to Thoth about it. He’s very helpful with situations like that. I wished I was there to comfort her. She going to drive down to San Diego the final weekend of April to see our show and drive us back to Oakland. We have a lot to get ready for the wedding in 2 weeks and no car to do it with. That will be interesting. We’re more trapped in Oakland than we are here. At least here we have bikes. It’s too hilly to get around Oakland by bike.

After dinner, I watched “One Flew over the Cookoo’s Nest” and stayed up until 2am.

Can’t get the Eyes Right

Tuesday April 8th 2014

I worked all day on my drawing, cleaning up the edges and adding depth and shadow. I wanted to redye my hair pink with conditioner but accidentally put shampoo on instead. It really pissed me off because I hate washing my hair. It washes out the color. Actually it made my hair very soft. It was such a beautiful day, which put me in a very good mood.  Thoth made a strawberry rhubarb pie for dessert tonight. Jim’s son Julian came over and Jim dropped his painting on his toe again. In the aftenoon I painted my drawing with pink hair and a white dress. I forgot to scan her before painting! Scanning my sketches makes me feel less nervous to screw up the painting. Thoth asked if I wanted to go out to play tomorrow. “It’s going to be hot.” he said. “Can Forrest take you?” Jim asked. “If Forrest can take us, then we can go, if not, then we stay home.” I said. It’s going to be 90 degrees tomorrow.

We started making dinner before Forrest arrive at 7. I made an arugula salad and Thoth made fresh rolls for appetizers. Forrest loved everything.”You should have a restaurant.” Forrest kept saying. Jim joined us for zucchini pasta. Thoth never cooks for anyone! Wouldn’t it be cool if we could have a show where we serve Thoth’s recipes? No one really knows how great a cook he is. I don’t think Thoth has cooked for anyone but me in a really long time. It was so much fun. It kind of got me excited about our wedding. Just having Forrest over was a blast, think of the fun we’ll have with 30 of our friends! After dinner, we had pie and sliced a piece for Forrest to take home. “What are you doing tomorrow?” I asked him. “I have to go to the IRS building.” he said. “Oh no.” I said. “Maybe I can come by after I see my brother and take you guys to the art store.” he said. “That will be fun.” I said. Thoth and I really like being with Forrest.

We went with him to his car and looked up at the sky. “There’s Mars.” said Thoth pointing to a tiny ball of red light. “And there’s Venus.” he said pointing to a blue light. “Just looking at the sky makes me feel so small. It puts all my problems in perspective.” I said. We said goodbye. “I love you.” said Thoth and Lila. “I love you, too.” said Forrest.

I got back to my drawing and watched “The Piano.” I love that movie. As I worked, the eyes still didn’t look right. I ended up erasing both of them and trying again. However, the eraser mixing with the paint and the led made the place where the eyes were very dark. I fixed one eye, but I couldn’t fix the other one. I stayed up until 2:30am trying to fix it. I hate getting obsessive. I’m no longer being creative, but I can’t help it. I don’t want to wake up tomorrow morning and have to look at it! I didn’t even write my blog or upload the videos. It put me in a sour mood and I started crying. I hate when I screw things up! I’ve been working for three days on this fucking thing! And I didn’t scan it so I can’t start again. Damn it. I know, some people have bigger problems, but I get so attached to my drawing. It’s like they’re alive. Why does everything have to be so difficult? I’ve botched up a few drawings this way. Eyes are the most important part of a drawing. I got in bed and pouted. Thoth snuggled me and made kitty noises. That made me feel a little better. He hates seeing me sad.

Returnees

Sunday April 6th 2014
This morning I was able to draw again for 2 hours! I just plowed through and got it into shape to scan. I love her hands and her face is so cute! I’m quite inspired by Marie Antoinette influenced fashion. I want to make all my faces look like that. This weekend I can paint the fashion models I’ve sketched, cut them out and make pretty little backgrounds for them!

The bike ride was really comfortable, but I was underdressed for the park. A girl with a wide brimmed hat was playing squash with a friend on the grass. I admired how pretty she was. During “Gypsy Dance,” Thoth got completely lost. He couldn’t find the rhythm. I stared at him wondering what was going on. I feel like it took him an entire minute to start singing. He actually gets distracted easily. He’s like a bunny that way. We didn’t have a crowd until 6 pieces into our set. That’s unusual. I guess it was too chilly. Sometimes I wonder if we should put directions for people like “sit here,” “leave a tip,” or “buy a CD.” etc. It seems people don’t know what to do unless they’re told. In another way, it’s interesting to see what people do without telling them. Jennifer, the comedian from Dat Phan’s show, sat and watched us. She said she loves my blog. Trish and her daughter came and had a picnic on the grass next to us. She always hugs me and says such wonderful things. She also loves reading my blog. “You are so open,” she said. “I swear I see such innocence in your eyes.” I love when people say how much they enjoy my blog! Trish came around in front of us and sat down like she always does. People came close to watch us. Audiences feel more comfortable coming closer to us if people are sitting down. It does limit people’s ability to come to our case, however.

SANYO DIGITAL CAMERASANYO DIGITAL CAMERAMark and Midge talked to us afterwards. They’ve come to see us 5 times now. We had a nice handful of returnees now. I hope some of them will come to our final show at Art Lab on April 25th! It would be great to have a lovely send off.  Mark was interested why we don’t play on the Prado. “You could make more money,” he said. “We’re not allowed to collect money without a permit. The park rangers enforce it, but they usually leave us alone back here.” I said. “Would you like to play in the front?” he asked. “Of course we would, we would be able to play more often. We can’t play in the back on the weekdays. There’s no one around.” I said. “But if you had a permit, you could play in the front?” he asked. “Yes, but they won’t give us one unless we stand in line for 2 hours once a month. Even then, we usually don’t get one because it’s a lottery.” He started pondering how he could get the rangers to give us a permit. “If you know the right person.” he said. Maybe he’ll help us. Wouldn’t that be something? “Do you have a particularly unique voice?” Mark asked me. “Yes.” I said. “People can’t sing as high as you.” he said. “No.” I said”You’re very fair.” he said. “Yes.” I said. God. These people adore us! I’ll never really know how many people do. It would be wonderful if every person who loves us could tell us how we’ve influenced them.

The girl with the cute hat came over when we finished. “I have my birthday here every year and you guys are always here. It’s so nice to have you here.”

I’m reminded of that first week in 2010 we played in Balboa Park. We did so well we were able to pay a month and one week’s rent for an apartment. We had it all to ourselves. We were even able to put on a house concert. That’s when Jim first met us.

Dinner was amazing. I picked some fresh arugula from the garden and made a salad. Thoth made a sweet rice stir fry with teriyaki salmon. Oh. My. God. I know, I know, you don’t care what I had for dinner! But it’s so freaking GOOD! Thoth does everything for me. But he does it because he loves me. Who could be luckier to have an incredibly talented singer, dancer, artist, computer genius and chef as a soon-to- be-husband? I’m pretty damn lucky.

Drawing without Judgement

Wednesday April 2rd 2014

I spent the day drawing. I’m not giving myself such a hard time anymore. No pressure, no beating myself up, just relaxing and enjoying the process. That’s what art is all about! Letting things flow. I’m not sure I’m liking the headdress part. I may scan it, then erase it and try something else. What do you think?

My sister is going back to Oakland tonight. We went on a bike ride to the smoothie place for an afternoon snack. I never take bike rides on our days off. It feels good not to have my violin on my back. There were a bunch of teenagers hanging around the smoothie place. They all stared at me and were all talking about Lady Gaga. God I can’t stand hearing her name! “I feel proud I am a grown up who is living my life as an artist.” I said to sis. “The teen population is in control of culture because they have all the expendable income. No teenage would like Tribal Baroque unless it was trendy to like us. It’s the magical people who love us despite our total lack of trendiness. They love us because they simply love us.” I said. We got a smoothie for Thoth and went home.

Karla wants to hang out with us tomorrow, but we’re having a birthday dinner with Forrest so I don’t think we’ll be able to. My sister went to the airport with Jim. She’ll be back at the end of this month to take us back to Oakland for our wedding!

I’ve listened to “Smeagol/Gollum” a few times over the years. It’s a song from The Lord of the Rings musical. Several years ago they had a clip of the performance on Youtube. It was amazing. Sadly, it doesn’t exist anymore. I went looking for the full album on Youtube and it’s actually quite a beautiful soundtrack. I especially like “Lothlorien.” I thought it would be cheesy, but it’s actually very magical. I would love to have a show like this about Tribal Baroque! That’s were a lot of money would come in handy.