Thursday April 10th 2014
I woke up late, but I was up too late last night. I started looking into housing for our stay in Edinburg. I was just curious what the prices are. All it did was freak me out, though. It’s impossible to find housing when we’re not in the city. We always figure out housing once we’re there, in ways we could never know now. After wandering around Barcelona for 3 difficult days in 2009, we bumped in Thoth’s old friend Vicente. He let us stay with him for 2 months! That happens everywhere we go. Lisbon, Greece, Porto, Amsterdam, Marrakech, San Diego.… Miracles always happen when we jump off the cliff. We just have to close our eyes and trust that we will land safely somehow. We actually haven’t been to a new city in a few years now. Thoth says we should treat ourselves to a hotel stay for the first week as our honeymoon. That would be nice, but I don’t want to spend a month’s worth of rent for 7 days in a hotel. We always spend the most money the first week in a new city. I got so upset I went to Thoth’s recliner and lay in his arms. We talked and it made me feel better. “Don’t do something that makes you upset when you’re in a bad mood.” he said.
We got dressed and went grocery shopping. They had fresh chicken tenders. I wanted one for a moment, then decided not to. It tastes good when I’m eating it, but I feel bad afterwards. Thoth was surprised I didn’t want one. “I guess I’ve brainwashed you!” he said jokingly. “You’ve washed my brain of all the bad behavior!” I said. I made lunch for myself, but it was tasteless. I felt overwhelmed. I lay down on the couch and Thoth lay down with me. He doesn’t like when I’m sad. “Do something that makes you happy.” he said. I finally started painting at 3 o’clock.
I worked on the top painting yesterday, but I wasn’t liking it so I added more flower paper and paint. My sister likes how I cut out the models and glue them onto a painted background. “It’s unique.” she said. For the second painting, I gave it a very simple wash for a background. The first one looked too busy. I want the focus to be on the model, not the background. The only way to learn is to make mistakes. I like the colors I used for the second one. It’s simple. I’d love to make paintings with the detail of Gustav Klimt’s work. I’m inspired by his art. I would like to be a master painter, singer, dancer, violinist, makeup artist and clothing designer. I don’t think that’s possible, but that’s my vision. It works well for me to follow my own self discipline. Thoth helps me when I need him. It’s almost like I’m still in school, but this is the school of life.
I found my favorite version of Jesus Christ Superstar. That made me happy.